Yikes. I'm glad you made it through with your quit in tact but that is scary, Jo. Yes, please reach out the next time you are that much on edge.
I think I may have told you this before but after the first couple of months of my quit, I started doing real well for quite some time - hardly any urges or craves to smoke. Then, out of nowhere, I was hit hard by all sorts of thoughts and urges to smoke for a few days roughly around my eighth month. It frustrated me so much because I thought I had put that behind me but nicotine addiction is like that. It will grab you when you least expect it.
These moments should become less frequent the further you get in your quit but that time frame varies for each person.
The key is to stay smoke free, no matter what. Reach out to us the next time something like this happens. Lighting up a cigarette will do nothing but make you miserable at this point, especially considering how great you are doing in your quit.