Jen

Thank you all for your replies! I'm feeling better this morning. Things are starting to settle down. My husband went to work so I'm happy for the extra breathing room. I don't think he realizes how extremely over the edge he can send me by being so thoughtless. My step daughter is home from her mom's she's been an huge huge help with my quitting. She is always giving me small reminders why I quit. She's 12 but amazingly bright. We're snowed in lol yay! Won't catch me going out in the snow with 3 kids to buy them nasty things. So it's off to sleep a couple more hours then some fun smoke free time with my kiddos what a wonderful day

I wasn't sure where to post... we shut our internet off to move. Won't be back in for a couple more weeks at least. It's so hard to do all this on my phone I have Awful 3g and I'm so frustrated! I was doing so great! My days were going up cravings going down. Moving day officially came. It was a ton of work i almost dropped a stove on my husband moving it down the stairs! He was in a hurry to get in and living here. He pushed to fast! I moved a lot on my own. I got what he wanted in and the heat wasn't working the water didn't work right the toilet didn't flush! The landlord fixed it all the next day but we still had to sleep a night with nothing! I flushed by buckets and it was cold our kids were miserable! The day they came to fix everything was the day we moved big stuff. That morning I just came unglued. :( I fell to the floor in a heap of tears. My husband acted like he just had better things to do and left me there and went to the car. I have my nephew my sister had her baby and he is yellow won't let him go home yet. So I've had him the whole time trying to move. Plus my 5 yr old. The day after we moved I worked 11hrs with one break long enough to eat. I'm sure I'm tired I'm constantly on the verge of crying mostly because I feel out of control! Tomorrow is the day I start over start fresh. No smoking day number one again :( I was so ready I'm still ready but not as sure anymore that I can do this. I'm not the only one right?? I want to do this!! 100% I want it! Errrrrr!

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Morning everyone, nope here

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Hi Tony!! Glad you joined us! Sorry I don't have a lot of time under my belt yet but I'm thankful to have found this website. Everyone has given me the best advice and absolutely have your back during the worst part of the quit. One day at a time. You can do this!

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I ended up taking my patch off at like 1 my time just after I dropped my son off at school. It says on the pack not to smoke in the next couple hours cause there's still nicotine in your system so I figured I'd swing it and see how long it lasted before I broke down and put a new one on... I didn't. The evening seemed to go pretty good. I had a huge battle with the electric company over the phone this morning. The guy told me what I needed to pay to have our utilities turned on in our new place and of course the woman I talked to today wanted 150.00 more then he told me.. I freaked out on her and cussed her from here to Sunday.. Hung up on her. I was really just flustered we don't have that kind of money. The ONLY reason we're moving right now is the new guy that moved in downstairs keeps trying to start fights with my husband and has overrun the yard, driveway and everything else. We can't keep our kids bottled up in an upstairs apartment.. We are NOT the fighting kind and I won't have him jumping us in front of our kids. If that's how he wants to teach his kids fine. So I plan to throw a fit about this and wanting my deposit back we have served out our lease the only thing I can't do is professionally clean the carpets. If I could have moved in a timely fashion I could have... That's 375.00 enough to cover what we need to finish moving. We won't have heat or hot water in this new place for a week! Unless I can get our deposit back. That's after borrowing money.. Breathe.... BUT I'm actually doing very well despite other things going on.. I sat and debated on going to get a pack of smokes for like an hour after the call with utilities.. I thought I have to take my son and the boy I baby sit both to the gas station with me, its cold, there's snow and ice, I have to heat up car, really?? LOL then BAM I was like HA yeah right not happening. I'm super tired I guess not having the patch on messed up my being able to sleep. I am not even sure why I even bothered typing all of that! Ah heck I feel better so who cares.

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hmm and a caveman diet is???? Personally I'm on a see-food diet :D

**raises hand and clears throat** you had me at bread..... and Lost me at ketchup and tomato lmao! I do love blt (minus the t) :)

AHHH!!! You totally ruined it ALL! LOL ketchup :bad:

I don't know about a picnic sandwich lol Rubens are delicious!!! When I was a kid I'd make some toast and cover one side with butter and the other side with peanut butter and smash it together. Once it all started to melt was the best time to eat it :D I still do it sometimes...my kids are not so thrilled about it lol Also a big fan of scrambling up some eggs and onions little mushroom and throwing it on some bread with cheese frying it up like a grilled cheese mmm I'm so hungry now.... haha