Evelyn
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NOPE, big time!
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*hick ups* oh Jimmy :DHey then we're on the same level Mister IdiotThanks Tiff!!!! I'm so glad I don't NEED to sustain an addiction and I'm proud of you too.Happy Birthday ;) :DSee the intelligence topic :P, hée I can be sad all fall or enjoy the light and make it my tradition ;) I never said all my wires were connected right, did I?Hey I'm Rudolf the Reindeer, see my red nose there? No, not smart, just average.Woohaa!!! NOPE!I'm a little crazy, but hey it's fun!What's new? You're the village idiot here :PNOPE'd myself through the cravings. At first I felt like 'oh they can smoke', all day... then, better go inside.... wait: 'Do I wanna smoke all day and imagined the taste and inhale and...' YUCK. Not ever again, I tried, no way NOPE!No just junkie thinking, arrived yesterday at the halloween party and 2 were smoking I stood there with my nose on top of it, first time since my quit. I was like 'oh my nose, my receptors aren't smelling this..' Guess the fact I woke up craving a cig that morning, was a little sucker too ;)Hurray! It's a NOPE!Pulled through well ;)All day long craving grrr.I dreamed I wanted to smoke, then I woke upThe other times, I was afraid of failing, also afraid of success, now not anymore.Oh Saz, you're such a hun. In fact me being NOPE Queen, give me the kick under me *ss to come here every day, NOPE and stick with it. My fith with sugar is AAAAARGHHH. Mindfcck!! Makes me crave for cigs when I cut back on sugar so no candy lol or soda, NO! Seriously, I've said it a couple of times. I had to TRY to be a REAL friggin smoker, those weeks and find out; I can't be one and in the end, don't want to be a smoker anymore. I found out, No 'just one' easily attacks me now anymore, as easy as before. I've unraflled lots of lies. Of the past, of addiction... of the faith that held me down... threw it all out the window. Oh I have batshth days but I expose myself to triggers so I LEARN not to fear it ;) like Halloween :) Oh and my hamster and I are bonding so lovely :D :D :D she's so cute... and the guitar goes well too. All by all, not going bad. I'm quit smoking and had some cravings today but when I see the dive into the smokersroom (and I smell it) I'm 1 tiny sec, would I? NOPE Bleh it's nasty not worth it at all, let them suffocate themselves I rather keep breathing for a while :DYuck
