Margeetx

Good bye. Best of everything to you all. margee

oh Jillar......please forgive me.....I meant no disrespect. I have an extremely warped sense of humor. I will never disrespect you again. margee. xxoo

oh my new friend,ButtLicker.....it almost feels like I am getting sick....except wait....I already am sick....AFIB,hypertension,back screwed up....yadayadayada. I feel stupid,weak,angry,sad,nauseated,freezing feet,....and, wish I had never smoked so I wouldn’t have to stop. ~ ~ * —

I am barely holding on. No cigarette since yesterday. I don’t want to eat because I will want to smoke afterwards. I am nauseated, so I have to eat something. I didn’t go to sleep until almost 4 this morning....them slept most of the afternoon. I am reading posts, watching Joel. Why do I feel so weird? xxoo

oh Jillar"........thank you for repairing my first blog entry....you are just a dear. I really don’t know how I managed to mess it up. I am fearful of going to sleep; what if I go stark raving mad in the morning with my coffee and no cigarette??? I have visions of me running down the street ( as if I could run...haha ), screaming like a mad woman. instead, I am planning a brand new routine for the first cup of coffee... think different- do different. I think I am going to cook my Sweetie a gourmet breakfast....he will surely faint with a smile on his face. x

hey Buttlicker: I typed up a blog entry but did not post it correctly, so it shows as general information about the blog....not a blog entry. Can it be fixed? Thanks. xxoo

This may end up being a mish-mash of random thoughts....I just feel the need to talk. In 2003, I fell (crashed) ....slipped on water from dog bowl...long story cut short....fractured pelvis in 9 places,mostly right side. Back has never and will never be great again. Misdiagnosed twice in ER, finally saw PCP, got the MRI. Technician asked, “ Honey, when was your car wreck?” You get the idea. 3 months later, I was walking without the walker, and doing “fair.” Kept working...I simply took call for the hospice, and would triage the calls-dispatch -ing staff as indicated. Was able to play 36

Well folks.... I am going against a lot your great advice. I have spent today reading, listening to Joel’s videos, and finishing my last pack. I keep thinking about my Mother, and how she quit cold turkey, back in 1986. I can remember her holding my youngest brother, breast feeding him, smoking a cigarette. Though I never breastfed my children, I never smoked while feeding them. I did afterwards. At that time, I had only been smoking a couple of years. Knowing what I know about addiction....my head is so full of “stinking thinking” today. I feel like my patients used to tell me

THANK YOU!!!!! xxoo

Hello all.....should I spend $199.00 dollars for the Allen Carr system....or can I get plenty of support from all of you great folks? We are seniors, on a fixed income.....that is a lot of $$$ in my book. help me know what to do....purty please.....xxoo

I have no clue on all of the possible ways to navigate this site....I am trying not to make it complicated....I promise! I worked in a psychiatric hospital for nearly 10 years. I managed the day treatment program. Held groups with addicts....did their drug screens....kept the doctors in line. This was back in the day when airlines would pay for 30 days inpatient, then they would transfer to my day program. Most were pilots, and most were alcoholics. The failure rate was extremely high after the first admission. So, I know what the disease of addiction is. I HAVE NOW REALIZED THAT MY SM

I read “somewhere” that picking a quit date helps. I am reading all that I can. When I quit before....it was Pre- internet....so, I am really trying to absorb all that I can.... xxoo

thank you...BUTTKICKER! xxoo

How do I access the replies to posts? please excuse my illiterate ability to NOT understand the obvious at times..... xxoo

I will stop smoking on Monday. I retired in 2016, after working as an RN for 47 years. Had no significant health issues until 10/15/15....these issues have gotten worse and my retirement has been horrible. Surprising....the issues have not been pulmonary so to speak...primarily abdomen aneurysm’s, resistant hypertension and AFIB. My pulmonary function...my doctor determined that I am not a real cigarette inhaler, as much as a mouth smoker, for the most part. But, I know the smoking is affecting my circulation. I was walking 2 miles 3-4 times a week; could easily play 36 hole