I know I’m new to this and this is all kind of odd for me to be writing about my cravings and desires to smoke but I’m going to give it a shot. It’s been 3 weeks now and all of a sudden, the past two days I have really been wanting just to have a cigarette. I have read posts on here, gone through videos, know all the negative things associated with smoking, but man, there are some days I just miss it.
I was about go to Vegas this past week but had to cancel for work related reasons and all I kept thinking was how nice it would be to be in a casino, have a cocktail and a smoke. Maybe not going was a good idea but the thought of it is weighing heavy. I’m sure I know the answer, but does anyone think I can only smoke there (Vegas) and not bring it back? Kind of like gambling and drinking, I hardy do either unless I’m in Vegas, could that be a thing?
All thoughts I have are how they (cigarettes) made me feel when feeling stressed or irritable. I try justifying it all and honestly feel crazy having an argument with myself over buying a pack or not.
Cravings have gotten less; so just trying to make it through this one. Thanks for listening. I feel just typing this all out has helped, at least for this latest craving.