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We're in hot water

Water under the bridge

2 years is amazing!!! Great job!

Congrats on making it through that first month!!! You did it!

Congrats on 1 month smoke free!!!

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.

See you around

Nope-ity nope-ity NOPE

Had the coolest thing happen last night. I had another smoking dream, but this one went very differently... Usually in my smoking dreams I'm enjoying the heck out of that cigarette, and I wake up feeling simultaneously very guilty and immensely relieved that I didn't actually smoke. Well, in last night's dream, I was excitedly anticipating that first puff, ready to light up, when I suddenly blurted out the word "NOPE!" I have literally never done that in a smoking dream, not even in the 11 years I was quit before. I just said "NOPE," and bam! I woke up. I guess my mindset has really changed! That or this place (and the daily pledge) is starting to infiltrate my dreams. Either way... totally winning!

Aww, thank you so much, everyone!!!! It's been a tough month for sure, but day by day it gets a little easier. And I'm so grateful for the support! ?

NOPE!

What a wonderful show of support! Thank you all. I can see I came to the right place. ?

I guess this post functions both to introduce myself as well as to celebrate being 2 weeks quit. Yesterday was my 2-week anny, and boy was it a doozy. I have had a pretty successful two weeks smober. I haven't really faced many cravings, although the fatigue, brain fog, and depression have been hitting me pretty hard. But last night I faced my first major test. I had to take my best friend, who is terminally ill, to the ER. Her illness is the trigger that caused me to throw away a very long quit, but I'm determined not to repeat that mistake. By the skin of my teeth, I made it through the night without running out for a pack of smokes. And today, as I expected, I'm so glad I didn't light up again! I know deep down that smoking won't lessen the pain of the loss I am facing. As someone told me last night--I would regret picking up smoking again, but I will NEVER regret quitting! I held onto that thought as I rode out the cravings last night. So I figured it was time for me to speak up in here. I've been lurking a bit but haven't really stepped forward and said hello. Today felt like the right time to do so!

NOPE

Spear

Stood

NOPE. Never again, one day at a time.