I don't want to smoke. I'm angry and sad. I'm unhappy. I'm feeling all the feels. Day 7. This is what happens. I get flooded with emotions that I used to smoke away. Open the floodgates....here they all come overcoming me. I start assessing everything and want to shake it all up. Ugh.
I don't want to smoke, but I want to smoke. I want the feels to go away. I can handle them little by little but not when they all come at once. I'm a love seeker. And when I make myself vulnerable and strip away my vice I start questioning my purpose, my relationships, etc. it's as if my uncomfortableness with not smoking equates my uncomfortableness in life. I get confused if I'm just uncomfortable from withdrawal or since I feel so crappy, everything in my life must be f'ed up too?!?
Help this is when I get in trouble. This is when I want a cig to fix it all!!