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It was after quitting smoking, I realized how addiction had turned me into a spoiled brat. I indulged myself completely, I smoked anytime and anywhere possible. My most shameful example was after a home birth, my brand new daughter, alive and healthy, was being walked around by her father and I said to my midwifes, 'man, after 9 months and the last 12 hours, I NEED A SMOKE'. One of my midwifes asked, 'Really ?' 'Yes yes yes yes yes YES, I want a smoke !" She handed me a non filtered cigarette from the pack she had hidden in her jacket and that was the end of that abstinence for 29 years ! I call it 'abstinence' because I never ever wanted to quit and only quit smokes and drinks 'temporarily' for pregnancy. That was really Big of me, huh ? I didn't give a hoot about second hand smoke and that was worse than just acting the spoiled brat. Second hand smoke does actual HARM to people, animals and plants. Smoking is suicidal, homicidal, herbicidal, biocidal all the cidal-s you can think of and continues to make the tobacco companies rich beyond measure Gah! I am elated to not be lining those evil pockets anymore glad also, to not be 'cidal' anything. and one more thing... My Spoiled Brat also made quitting harder. 'This is too hard' the brat would moan 'I don't want to !' the brat would whine 'Why Are You Denying Yourself ? ' The Brat cajoled and wheedled until I simply had no other choice, I killed the Spoiled Brat. Killed Dead. Spoiled Brat-icide. Hah ! If you are thinking about quitting, Know You Can. You don't have to be the spoiled brat that addiction turns us into or, a slave to nicotine anymore. You Can Quit.

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'hold a smile in your heart'

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ran and ran and ran some more. I felt so free, so

7 night y'all :)

You have to come to grips that you have a nicotine addiction. This is serious. Addiction sucks. You can't just be 'a little addicted'. Give yourself the best gift in the world, freedom from nicotine. Do this anyway you can. NRT's, Medication etc. are great tools. Just stop putting a cigarette in your mouth and lighting it on fire. You will not regret it.

7 evening/morning everybody

out comes a rusted bolt I put in a gallon jar of pennies

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Leaving the club with Walter Wolfman Washington's great CD in hand and walking/floating home. Last last who was the last person to persuade you into something you weren't sure about

I knew I was in danger of loosing

my most excellent Duck and Andouille Gumbo, Buttermilk biscuits, green salad and Charley's Pecan Pie what was the last book you recommended ?

I am very foggy today, the LAST game. sorry, C LAst last last last a pair of cheapo beatle boots that I wore till they were in shards was the Last thing I threw away in disgust what was the last dream you had ?

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