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Looks lovely, hope you got room for some hats ;) Not long now, most awaited baby :) xx

The other week I was on a train and some guy got on puffing away what can only be described as a clarinet sized vapour with a tank on it the size of your fist when he exhaled you couldn't see anyone for a few seconds, a lady had her dog next to us and the dog kept trying to get under the seat when he saw or sensed the vapour the train was rammed and small babies and children were there but he was with a gang of drunk blokes football/halloween so none of us said anything and the conducter mysteriously stayed away, wanting to punch in the face I get! Today I passed a white van where the passenger had a babe in arms in the front seat, some people are just thick as a plank and selfish with it!!

It's a sad fact that they are related to each other I can only speak from what I see or I know maybe others can relate a story? My story is my mum she is a heavy smoker and absolutely convinced she will not quit as its her only comfort!! Which is ironic as her discomfort, disability and depression is all born by smoking!! She has blocked arteries from smoking, this has been medically confirmed by examinations and consultants, she is not over weight and smoking is the number one culprit. These blocked arteries have caused her to be disabled whereas she cannot walk more than 10 meters without having to sit down, this has made her a prisoner in her own home and brought on a depression that makes her the most negative, bitter, sad person to be around. Getting her to understand or accept this has been an impossible task believe me I have tried Depression for me has been a hard learning curve one that I never understood but I'm beginning too... It's definitely not a case of "come on cheer up you miserable bugger" this was my attitude for so long and it doesn't help at all In my experience when someone is really depressed, it's just not the same as a bad day or feeling a bit low or down. So how to tackle it, well one day at a time at the moment trying to get her to at least get dressed every day for the last four days she hasn't bothered as part of the depression comes, why bother and every excuse in the book why not to bother, it's windy, it's dark, it's miserable, no one is coming I'm not going out and you offer to take her out and you get another list of excuses (she never runs out!!) etc anything rather than action! To say this is frustrating is an understatement as the opposite to depression is expression and action So at the moment every excuse I'm trying to match with a solution and buying tools and equipment that will aid this for example a walker with a basket and seat so she can walk but sit when needed without worrying about having to leave a shop or worry she won't make it A mountain we must climb just to function like a normal human being, something we take for granted when not in this position and one she herself took for granted and smoking has taken it all away from her slowly but surely over the years We all think it wont happen to us, but how it can easily sneak up its so sad The morale of the story is why climb a mountain take the easy road quit while you can, while you have your health and mobility it is surely easier than the above path This post is not for sympathy but for a stark reminder to truth What possible comfort did smoking bring here? Nothing! It's an addiction!

Nope but I am eating lots of chocolate, 3 crunchies yesterday oops :)

My aunt is coming to visit my mum for a few days so I have taken advantage and booked myself into a nice hotel, coast very near by and green hills, lots of walking planned, beach combing, shop mooching and in the evening taking advantage of the spa, pool and wine, absolute bliss!

Thanks had to be done just was a shock as a situation dictated it had to be done there and then, got my head around it today x

Lmao spat my coffee everywhere Doreen :)

Probably a combination of all if them plus the darker nights, my best remedy get out in daylight for a brisk walk at least 20 minutes in nature is best but a walk is is a walk Massive congratulations in week 3 awesome job Bobby :)

Lol couldn't resist http://s1355.photobucket.com/user/Rockabillychick1/media/Mobile%20Uploads/F9FB5476-853D-4D04-B62E-988B711F46A1_zpsmrumuhtx.jpg.html

What a horrendous day removing all my sister's personal belongings today, her life in a few bags so ******* upset :(

Oh yes why just today me,rez and his mom had a three way we were on Skype and his mom called him so he put her on speaker and I was shouting into my kindle but I think she is a spoil sport and kept her clothes ;) epic fail!

Argggg this f sucking waiting game is doing my nut in!!!! Come on get to it!!

I believe rez is taking his mom to the casino after dinner and he is under strict instructions to win big :)

Hi stranger good to see you

Wth ?? I wonder if they have a silver womb I could buy lol

I still haven't had one of those dreams, which I am grateful for but I don't remember dreams very well unless I am yelling at someone in my dream as I tend to shout out and wake myself up lol You did the right thing and You recognised the sneaky mind games

Well hello stranger good to see you x Me, oh you know still flashing my knickers too, Rez hates it ;)

Nope

You will not be bored when you quit as you will be surprised on how much more stuff you do instead of just sitting or standing there puffing away, now that is boring!! I like it - umm no you are addicted to it and the little drug gives you a hit I COULD NOT COPE WITHOUT A SMOKE

Every addict says that, newsflash you are no special snowflake, just an excuse! I CAN'T QUIT WITH CHRISTMAS COMING UP AND ALL THOSE SOCIAL EVENTS?

Have fun with it :) I never went to any reunions, facebook filled the inquisitive minds, but I would like to go see a certain teacher who once said "tracey carry on like this and you won't amount to anything or go anywhere and maybe end up in prison" I would like to hire a helicopter, land in the school playing field and tell him they never caught me and I'm still on the run then fly off lol (porkandpancakes) look away nothing to see here :)

Another interesting fact is I am in a relationship with rez from here we met on the forum and every few months i go and see him and get him in shape for a few months ;) I confess I haven't drove a lorry since leaving the mob but it's handy to have in case I get the yorkie bar urge :) so far I have not lol

Hope you feel better soon, congratulations on a huge milestone x

Dancing in bedroom like a loon, headphones on, music blaring mum thinks I'm watching tv, 45 and still hiding my craziness from my mother lmao

Happy birthday hope you had a great day x