I get it! The early days of my quit I was so consumed with trying to keep my quit that just normal day to day stuff seemed like more of a chore and frankly an annoyance than ever before. As you also mentioned, I find this time of year; after the beauty of early autumn but before the first winter snow, to be particularly difficult ... almost depressing just due to so much more darkness and the weather where I live seems to always be dreary in November/early December. There's no magic bullet for getting through the early stages of one's quit ... hard work in keeping focused on the ultimate goal is a powerful tool and WILL pull you through if you can keep your desire to achieve that ultimate goal as your number one mental focus every day. Have you thought about making a daily pledge of NOPE each day when you first get on whatever electronic device you use to come to the site? The thread for that is on the main page and titled "The Daily NOPE Pledge". It's a simple yet good way to recommitt yourself each day to not smoking; just for today!