Huge trigger

 

Some one said something that gave  me a  Huge  bad past flash back 

 

Hardest test yet

Tracey take some slow deep breaths and give yourself some air.

The past is the past, don't dwell on it. Your future is as a non-smoker and you can make whatever changes you want.

Use your rational mind to take charge of your situation; don't let your emotions call the shots. Don't make me send a big guy in a skirt to hunt you down.

Talk to me Tracey, you've come a long ways and I'm proud of you.

I am stomping around using the energy emotion is taking over!

What would Bakon do? OK he wouldn't smoke, don't think too much about what else he might do.

Ha t e it I am an addict thinking something fix it and make me feel better

NOPE

I know it won't I just need to hit something 

Smoking won't calm you down. I know because I tried it before and it didn't work. Go for a walk or a run and release that adrenaline. All smoking will do is produce more of it.

Feeding your addiction will not make you feel better! You'll feel like shit.

Think about your feelings, are they as bad as you think?

I know I just need to  rationalise

I am so mad grrrrr

Close your eyes and tell me about your vacation.

Your addiction is in a primitive part of your brain and it is taking advantage of your emotions.

Scary lift I'm scared of heights and lift was on the outside of a cliff

Good seafood cold pool and sea

Sing some karaoke. I won't laugh, I can't sing and I have no rhythm.

Ok that made me laugh lol

I love swimming in the sea. I'm also scared of heights and can't eat seafood, so swimming for me.

Are you allergic to seafood?

How was the weather? Hot and humid here.

I don't think I'm allergic, I just can't eat it. Sometimes I wish I could. I don't mind cooking it.