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I just wanted to tell y'all HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!!! And I hope everyone has the bestest one they have ever had. oops.... I meant to put this in socializing. Please feel free to move it

Your doing good Natalie. I'm so freaking proud of you. You need to pat yourself on the back. Good night and sweet dreams.

can I make one more suggestion ? When you go to bed tonight, do something different. LIke maybe have a glass of juice or sleep with a different pillow. But break your routine. Just a little bit.

Have you read the thread "do you know what your smoking ?" I will see if I can find the link for you. It's pretty scary. ha ha, you found it

Oh tobacco is in there too. With 3,999 other components.

How are you feeling ?

I run the hospice unit for a cancer institute here in Houston.

And yes, some do smoke for 50 years. But I can also tell you that NO ONE gets away with it unscathed. The time will come. For some, it comes sooner, and for others, later. But you are changing the family abuse. Right now. You are teaching your unborn children that they can live free from this. You are changing your whole family for generations to come. Think about it. Your dad taught you, someone taught him and you are stopping the insanity of it all now.

It's a set up. And it's cruel. They know what they are doing and they still do it. Do you know there are actually anti depressants and anti anxiety components in those damn things ?

I get home from work and wah lah !! dinner is made. I love it.

I'm not a big baker. Heck, I'm not really even a good cook. BUT !!!! I have been doing crock pot cooking the last few days and OH. MY. GOD !!!! It's so goooood !!!!

I'm sorry to hear that. Your definitely making the right choice. Can you imagine raising children NEVER knowing a smoking mommy ? That's the way it was meant to be. Cigarettes are evil.

Good, the cookies will definitely help. My favorite is chocolate chip with walnuts. lol Reading and art, huh ? That's pretty cool I bet you can write pretty good too. Your doing good, just keep going...... by the time you wake up in the morning, your gonna be so freaking proud of yourself.

Are you eating something ?

Your doing amazing. I noticed it was an hour since your first post and the last one before I signed on. And you didn't go smoke !!! Do you know what that means ? That means you REALLY want to quit. And your doing fabulous !!!!

Cigarettes affect your blood sugars for quite some time. Eat something and let's see if you feel better. And let's talk about something other than smoking. Or not smoking. lol Tell me a little about your self.

Your blood sugar may be low. Can you eat something sweet for me?

Yeah, it's a horrible feeling. I know. But listen to this..... I know it sounds crazy. But your body is actually healing right now. If you can just bear through it, I promise you it will get better. But if you choose to smoke, you will be back at day one. And neither one of us want that, now do we ?

Natttalliiee !!!! I'm so hoping you fell asleep....... I'm still here. Let's talk.

I'm here. What's going on ? Please don't go away. I will talk all night if you need to. Sorry no one answered but there is someone here now and all I'm asking is that you talk to me.

Nat, you still here ? Talk to me.... please. Dont' smoke.

I'm not going anywhere. Sometimes though it's nice not thinking about not smoking/ smoking every minute of every day. If that makes any sense. Susana's post in the SOS came just at the right time on the right day. I knew exactly how she felt and I read what y'all wrote and it helped me. Its' been 2 freaking months. It gets frustrating having to deal with it 24/7. And of course, I have wondered what the freak is wrong with me. I shouldn't be having any struggling this late in the game. But truth be told..... I really do like not smoking. Not to say, there aren't times I miss it. But overall, I like the way I feel. I feel so much better. And I am hell bent this time on NOT relapsing. There. Your in my loop. Kinda dizzy feeling, isn't it ?

I'm right here. still smoke free. been really really busy and having a hard time with my quit. Seems like I hit 2 months and went "whew, I did it. Now I can smoke." I hate sounding like the negative nilly all the time. So I'm trying to get my thinking right. Thanks MQ for checking up on me though. I'm still going on with my quit.

Lace, I'm not sure what tomorrow entails at times. But I do know I have control over today. Just one day at a time. The fight does get exhausting, I know it does. So sometimes I just quit fighting and surrender to it. I tell myself.....ok, I would like to smoke. But this time, I'm not going to smoke. I'm not gonna do it today. And then I try to find something healthy to do.....even if it's just eating a banana. It will get easier. I promise. You just gotta have faith and believe. I hope your feeling better today. Please stick close to us today. We don't want you straying off into wonderland....... Wonderland isn't the best place to be when one's feeling weak.

185 !!!!!