Amy

Happy Birthday Gavin! :)

Hi Evelyn, I am reading Alan Carr The Easy Way- Have you read it? I am on page 12 so there is no profound easy way yet but I am going to finish the book. Lots of people here on the board say it is a great help. I have struggled and you have struggled. We are not quitting our quit. The book may be helpful.

I just downloaded Alan Carr's book and I am going to begin reading it. Thanks for all of the support! I will not quit quitting.

I will join you for today. NOPE

I feel like an idiot.. all crying and struggling over a pack of cigarettes? Really?? To be honest smoking did not make me feel any better than I was before. Now I know what I am not missing. My chest hurts a little and I disappointed myself. I am sitting her second my head in disbelief. I am going to read Alan Carr today in my slow times at work. I am going to learn the easy way to quit. And even if it turns out not to be so easy I am still quitting. Thanks everyone for all of your support. :)

That sure does make me feel better a practice quit. This time I am in the game.

I think there is a misunderstanding- it is Gavin's Birthday today and my quit day. But thanks for the Happy Birthday wishes :)

I fell off big time- I feel broken. I was able to talk to LB and Colleen in chat and this helped. I still am so disappointed in myself. I asked you when you fell off where was your SOS.. I did not even bother although I could have. I am not leaving. I signed up for a new quit day tomorrow. Only thing is I cannot keep on doing this. This has to be my final destination. I am tired and this so far has not been easy- it is like I am running to catch the train as fast as I can before I miss it. I am going to read Alan Carrs book my quit day is tomorrow. I am going to be joining you on the train and I hope to find you well.

Hi Leah, Yes you are right I did not try. I will not let this happen again. Thanks!

Hi Julie, For some reason when I press the quote button it does not work..anyway you have already helped me tremendously with all of your posts and blog. I feel like you are this strong person that I want to be. Keep on posting and I will keep on reading. I am not quitting my quit.

Thanks LB I am not quitting no matter how tough it seems I am going to do this.

Thanks Ladybug..I am going to be there behind you on the freaking stairway

Thanks Ava I have not read it- I should go after work tomorrow to the bookstore and buy it. I will do this.

I am back,, Aine asked why do I want to quit.. I think this is my problem I don't want to quit- I like to smoke. I want to be healthy, I don't want to have to live on oxygen, I don't want to die of lung cancer this is why I have to quit I have no choice

Can't do this right now will be crying my eyes out do not want to be a blubbering idiot in front of the other half,,, I am not leaving. He will be going to bed in half hour I will sign back on.

Today I had 3 chances to buy cigarettes - the 3rd chance I chose to buy a pack, I smoked 5 cigarettes already and really do feel like crap for breaking my VOW and my pledge. I honestly feel like crying but I am not alone so I will not. Needless to say I will be starting over from scratch. Smoking just feels like normal- I have no excuses. I know I did not post an SOS I am not sure it would of helped my mind was set- it was set all day. I am going to continue to pursue my quest to quit smoking I have to- I do not want to be a loser and I know if I continue to smoke I will consider myself a loser. Tomorrow or the next day I will be resetting my ticker and starting over. I am not going any where. I need to be here I am addicted to smoking and I cannot quit by myself. I am really sorry...did not want to disappoint everyone.

Happy Earth Day everyone! :rolleyes:

Pork Loin

Not feeling so much in control just winging it doing my NOPE pledge everyday and crossing my fingers. Quitting Smoking sucks right now and I know it will get better just waiting for that day.

It I there I would you offer you a twizzler and some chocolate- you know in your heart that you don't want to smoke and it is not always easy saying no just remember you are not smoking for you- nobody else. You can get through this.

Yes- I was thinking about this eat chocolate or smoke.. I am putting the bag of goodies away for now will have more tomorrow.

I walked over from my office to the CVS.. I had no shopping list just wanted something really wanted a pack of cigarettes. This is what I came back with. 1 pack of twizzlers (just ate about 4) 1 pack of Brookside dark chocolate Acai with blueberry (trying this next) 1 pack of Brookside dark chocolate Goji with raspberry (maybe will get to this) 1 bag of tootsie roll loli pops The dark chocolate Acai is really good it is soft fruit flavored centers covered in smooth dark chocolate. onto the loli pop LOL- I don't eat crap like this but I guess I am now.

Congratulations Tracey!! 5 months is great :)

Awesome I want one!

Hi Anna, Welcome to th e Quit Train! Congratulations! :)