clarosa

Thanks a bunch to all of you. I know that I am going to find a lot of support here and I'm looking forward to smoke-free days ahead. I am busy identifying my triggers. I have a trigger-oriented addiction. I only smoke at home and I want them at certain intervals in the day. I can go hours without smoking but now that I have quit, it is all I can think about. I can't stay away from house but I can find other activities. So that is what I am going to do, I have already read some great suggestions. I think I will make good use of the SOS board!!!

I got a heavy dose of tell-it-like-it-is on another board and immediately felt attacked and not supported BUT... In retrospect, maybe I just wasn't ready to hear the truth or maybe I needed a little love and encouragement. I don't know why I am mentioning it, perhaps its irrelevant. I've had my last cigarette and I know what I am in for because the last few days I have failed. I have scavenged, I have cried and I have smoked. I know it's not impossible but I would be lying if I didn't acknowledge my self-doubt. I know a positive attitude is key but I'm having a hard time with that right now. Im down from 10 cigarettes a day to 2 but I know that that is not good enough. It has to be no cigarettes ever. I have quit before. I have a year smoke free here and there but I always think "i can smoke just one." We all know that is not true. So I am starting over, starting now. NOPE!