I wish you well my friend. It's a very tough thing to do. You gotta keep trying though until you find a way to remain quit. I know this will get easier the longer I refuse to give into the seduction of lighting up again. And yes; you are doing this for you and no one else - be selfish in your quit. Do this for you before you worry about anybody else. Don't mean to preach cuz I don't know anything about all this quitting stuff. Only know what I have been through and the thoughts I've had the past couple of weeks. I will be pulling for you to make this a permanent quit !