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Just FUKINGKIDDING. Made ya look. Neener. (sorry sg) I obviously need a facebook or blog or something, yes? Clearly not a blog on these forums. they are all indeed filtered. I dont know filtering. If you have a facebook, msg me, let me know. Ill make one.

youll never know what you are, or what you like until you try it. much like eating brussels sprouts or asparagus. i like ****, meat curtains, AND asparagus. and brussels sprouts. sometimes.

My friend and two sons came over for a little dinner today. They were getting ready to go as their mom said..come on! we have to go take baths I said..i wanna bath too! Will you share? The 4 year old..no! im not sharing my bath with you! no no no. Me..fine then. let me just give you the heimlich maneuver so you can vomit up all the food i just fed you, you ingrate. Thatll teach you about sharing 4 year old..whats the scratchit moving? youre so silly, you crazy, I want a hug Bends over to hug him, and he socked me right in the eye. Im not sure if im glad i didn’t have more kids, or if im sad i missed out on something. Ps..best birthday week EVER! If i could turn back time and repeat, i so would. I did have to leave one bar, due to smoking allowed inside still, but that was okay. I survived. Working on thanksgiving madness next. YES!

my lunchbreak turned into quite the tongue lashing, and not the kind i enjoy. theres a few people at my job who will read things i post on here, and laugh, tell me im insane, shake their heads at me. nothing unusual there. especially when they actually come talk to me. usually a bunch of fun. today one lady completely yelled at me, pointed finger and all, accused me of cheating on my husband, told me i need jesus in me because being gay is a sin, and on these quit smoking boards my posts should consist of just that, not about my personal life. that has nothing to do with this. uh..WHAT? i could only respond by saying im not gay, i just sometimes like girls too, anything done WITH my husband is not cheating. cheating consists of lies, sneaking around, outright doing things you know are wrong and hurtful according to your relationship. i have done none of that. as far as the boards go, i prefer to post about the things, and people like you who make me want to smoke out of frustration...as opposed to simply saying "oh crap i feel like smoking right now". of COURSE its about my personal life. i then asked her why she is reading any of this anyway since shes not a smoker, never was, never had any addiction of any kind (that we know of). she just walked away. just like that. shrugs...i think she secretly likes me and wants to know me better than she wants to admit. now, as far as "jesus in me" goes, i wonder if this is what she has in mind? if so, sign me up.

"but I need cotton on my crotch" i need much MUCH more than cotton on my crotch.

OHHH! that is a great idea! ...prepares to be blocked by a few members..... :D :D

about what? threesomes? kissing girls? what? lol..i did mention i believe a while ago ill talk about anything and everything. sometimes its a curse not having filters on sharing, but...ive been told at least im not boring. :D

im not sure exactly what this game is supposed to be, bakon, but... id kiss a girl.

finish baking all the cupcakes for my friends party tomorrow. i forgot the eggs in the batter. uh..did you bake them yet? no.. .well then scrape all the shit out of the cups, and do over i dont want to do this anymore she says... what? bake? your friend, your deal. you gonna go empty handed? no. you never go anywhere empty handed, mother. and...yeah bake. i messed up. okay then just give up and set the house on fire. id do it if i had life insurance on yall. baking is easy alex. you can mess up. theres always a do over here. she did. cupcakes are moist as hell. she also ****** up her nails. picking apart cupcake tins. ahh...teenage life. angst.

hahhahahhahaha...no not quite where i was going but okay... youre so silly.

i havent had that yet..though im going to assume its like a wet dream when you wake up with a semi.

its always hard to say goodbye to the person you once were. i find it harder to say goodbye to EVERYTHING at one time. you didnt lose yourself. just a little thing, like not stepping on cracks. walking under ladders. putting seatbelts on. not drinking out of the milk container. youre still YOU. happy birthday to you!

ill be going back to the house, and cooking for 13. as always. we will be decorating for christmas, and prepping for the holidays. tradition.

lol...clearly id like to be smoking right now..so instead of that you all get blessed with my weird ass random thoughts, memories and venting. anyway.. im bisexual. ive never been one to think of sex or love as one particular being or thing. im pretty free in all of my thinking. to each their own. this includes religion, politics, or neither. unless youre ******* farm animals or ferrets. that is NOT okay, even if it is legal in some states. ferrets are to squirmy anyway. maybe sheep. i do think baaaa...means no tho. soooo.... yes, alex knows. ive never brought girlfriends for the day around her, nor had a serious relationship with a woman around her. i like ****. i like the weird ass brady bunch values i somehow picked up in life, the traditions, thats what i focus on with her. i was peeing and just had a random memory of when i first met my hubs..and told him i was bi. of course, being male, he was ALL SORTS of into that. there were multiple threesome encounters. it was good. fun. hot. then i remembered when he got all jealous and angry, called me a ******* dyke, and was completely infuriated when id go out because id be cheating on him with some bitch. not even some guy, but he was worried about girls too. i just giggled now..boy have things changed. has anyone else gone through the threesome failure? or multiple ones? just curious...obviously you wont respond if youre not open there.

this upcoming birthday will be my first one in years that i wont be smoking. im super happy about that but also a little nervous, as i celebrate a birthday week, not just one day. and holidays are hard for me. my birthday always begins the holidays. i always joked about it..dear god. here goes my mind and innards until january 5th. its normally a lot of noise and alcohol. drama. BUT...heres my plan. im too busy to be smoking. *reminds self repeatedly* im going to eat a lot of sushi, sashimi, rare steak, and dark chocolate. (favorite things in my mouth other than...well you know). im going to a winery with a couple girlfriends, and dont have to be home by 9pm. non-smoking limo. (girlfriends idea, not mine..tho i thanked them for that. they really do love me) philly strip clubs. BOOBS!!! im going to have the longest goddamn bubble bath ever. usually ill do that on the official day anyway, but this year ill actually be all alone. its going to be spectacular! no one knocking on the bathroom door, or talking to me through it, asking if im okay because ive been in there a half hour already, and when is dinner????.... it takes a ******* half hour just to get the bubbles right dammit. and wait? dinner?? hah. im NOT cooking dinner this birthday. facial. (avacado and oatmeal just for clarification ). wine. candles, a bit of marilyn manson and classical piano in the background, (favorite things in my ears) which will sound like a concert for one because you know...echo. loud. i like my music LOUD. bathroom music. bose. singing into the showerhead. i may even masturbate in there...because I CAN! OMG i can see if my vibe really is waterproof!!! i can even take the computer in and chat away while having a bath. or watch porn. AND watch porn!! heyyyyyyy now! hour long full body massage, mani-pedi. visiting a friend overnight sat-sun who i havent seen since her daughters funeral. loving catchup time. i see no stress in this week. in fact, there really hasnt been much going on at all. its weird, but i cant even say how grateful for the quiet i am. or have ever been. im going to practice a whole lot of self love this week. by sunday night, ill be so ready for alex to come home from my sisters and snuggle. until then? DUDE..WHERES MY CAR? FERRIS BUELLERS DAY OFF. WEEKEND AT BERNIES. ANIMAL HOUSE. STRIPPERS!!! we will talk about turkey later. i hate turkey.

i have seen a lot of weird things for sale, that youd think were a joke, but they are real. the hair of your lover (either head or pubic) entwined with hemp for bracelets bracelets, (or dolls) rings made out of your lovers teeth (or childrens..or whoevers) ballsack pendants much like the heart above... i wouldnt want to wear a ballsack necklace. pearl ones are prettier. *winks*

YES!!!

wait...maybe...:O

honesty in selves lesbian porn anal sex pot wine facials. (not those kind.pervs)

:D ive found hone delivery of rechargable batteries. and chargers. ******* yes.

Alexa is so silly...and made friends with the neighbors who hate Halloween. Im not sure why cuz she loves it..anyway They are all playing Christmas music. Im making cookies, the neighbor next door made a ham. The other is putting up her xmas tree. WTF is this world coming to? It is way too soon for that..but okay! Im all about the fun. Ps...all is okay. Mother is in rehab. Hubs is in rehab. (The judge laughed at his custody filing. Never going to happen) Im still not smoking. Though I think of it many, many, many times. Feeling out some new job opportunities. People, places, things...letting go is hard. Things are looking WAY up. Aint no other place for me to go from here, but there. UP.

hes filing for custody. THIS is amusing.

Again..welcome, Dave. You can always read my shit again if you need a distraction...lol!

As much as i would like to do so, id rather keep her dead. she doesnt even deserve that sort of reaction from me. Stepping into my home was enough of a shock...the last of one shell ever see.

ps...welcome! nice to meetcha.