Soberjulie

Posted April 23, 2014 

Sometimes

it takes every last bit of you to keep your balance

and not do something self destructive.

I'm not talking about willpower, I'm talking about

something else.

I'm not sure how to describe it.

It's like the part of you that wants to live,

the part of you that is committed to not smoking,

is connected by only the most slender of threads to

the part of you driving the car,

making the decisions.

Sometimes you just hang in there,

a minute at a time.

You ask for help, but you know

if you choose to

you can turn away from that pretty easily,

or even accidentally

on purpose.

Sometimes

not sliding backwards

counts as moving forwards.

Sometimes not actively trying to die is

living large.

Sometimes holding your ground

is a fragile miracle.

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