'No More' truth or dare: final quitdate 15 September 2016
We wrote this on a blog about quit smoking, the members know we have DID.
No more cigarettes. No more deceiving, no more lies. Oh boy have I fall for lies and deceivement, oh boy.
Who lied most. The people who should have been my safe haven, they lied, hurt, abused, drank and lied again... they lied to blame ME, for what THEY did. I was the failure. I didn't do good enough. I was a bad girl (...) I no longer believe lies. I chose not to.
Lies. They capture you and you're too strangled to realize you're stuck. If you are a survivor of abuse or incest, domestic violence... you've been wrapped in lies. It's all your fault, you made them do it?!
WRONG! I was innocent, I look back and cry and know I am stronger then I've ever been before. I no longer follow lies, that are like a route on the floor: it's up to you, stay a victim, or become a survivor and take back your life and say. 'No more'.
I was never bad. I NEVER asked for it! I wasn't a failure. I wasn't bullied because I was weak. it. I was struggling to stay alive, my whole life and look what happened to the oyster in that locked shell. It opened, and a beautiful pearl rolled out, all shinny knowing there's a world where other oysters are locked and pearls are being formed, they just need to do one thing.
Stop believing the lies. Start believing in themselves. <3
I did. I thrive, I no longer survive. I no longer repeat lies. I decided to be kind to myself. Look in the mirror, and who looked back, broke my heart. It was a little girl all torn apart who fell into pieces long ago. But guess what? The pieces still fit. Nothing got lost. No arm, no leg, no nose or limb is lost; because the pieces were her heart. And when I looked in that mirror that girl watched me look back and she saw a beautiful woman, who picked up the pieces, gathered them, nurtered them and hugged them; not one single precious piece was lost of that broken heart and the only way to heal... was to love and hug and put every piece together in the original place and LOVE it for it was meant to be. An innocent child. Again I looked the woman who looked back, was of worth and imaginable strength and courage love, for herself: if you don't love yourself and your broken pieces... how can you ever love someone else?
The cracks in the mirror had disappeared. The heart of pieces in my hands was healing and is healing. It's soul was never broken, just the appearance, the look of the Heart.
I was talking about myself, but there's many other broken hearts- who will turn into broken souls if they don't pick up their own broken pieces and start loving them.
The lies... they come, but I never, ever; no longer obey... to those lies. And when I caught myself trapped I unwrap myself, or the piece of my heart that's trapped. And that's what you should do. Unwrap yourself of all the lies in your life and dip yourself in unconditional love for yourself. Because others refused to, or didn't.... makes it even more important to Love your Heart.... and the broken pieces of it that need healing. Time is on your side, when you start today.
Now about quit smoking. I tried, I lied... I faked, I died inside... I was never quit. Until now. I still believed the lies, from the broken past, but also from the cigarette factories, that mythical One cigarette...I smoked, for weeks.
Cursing my coughing lungs 'cancerlungs' for not able to inhale, the smoke, the cigarette I 'thought' I wanted. I never wanted it, I thought I needed it. Another lie unarmed. You don't need cigarettes.
The truth is cigarettes kill, factories pay billions to sell and make money they killed for it. The government doesn't wanna ban cigarettes because it brings them money: Will they kill you? Will you let smokes kill you, will you keep believing in the lie? Another fact; the Nicotine Replacements are LIES! They keep you in withdrawls...
I know I don't. No more lies.
Lies are Death insself in my eyes. The choice is up to you. Now may I say: truth or dare?
Dare you unraffle lies, from your own thoughts, your own addiction, your own demons?
Truth or dare.
I chose truth and it started on 15 September 2016
Dare you love yourself, dare you look in the mirror and pick up the broken pieces, dare you be someone who seeks the truth.
The real truth. Because lies are sealed in beautiful wrappings. Don't buy them. Dare to say no to lies, dare to choose your freedom, on so many levels, and be the person you were meant to be.
Rawr. We are back.
To ALL lies, reply NOPE. Don't inhale lies, don't let them get in your head.No more.... NOT ONE PUFF EVER!
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