My heart is broken

To all out there i say hold onto your loved one and treasure them for we know not how long we are together.Today is day 106 of my not smoking.No not looking for any congrats at all . My wife who had copd but could not stop smoking died last monday in a hospital from complication.She was on life support for 3 days. Doctor said she had walking pneumonia for about 3 weeks. She never said a word. The doctor said her lungs were the worse he has seen.Filled with absesses. God i hurt  so so bad . So any who cant say no just think about us you leave  behind.Her kidneys went first than her liver and finally her heart gave out. She died in my arms sob . She was a beautiful  woman and fantastic mom. Would never hurt a fly but hurt herself and us that are left behind.Never sick a day in her life. She was only 60. I will leave you all with the last thing i saw from my wife.She was sitting up on the table in the icu in obvious pain but slightly coherent. I walked into the room looking straight into her eyes. The doctor stopped me and said sir i am sorry but you must leave for awhile, we have to put her on life support. I was confused but still looking at her,she heard him. While looking at me i saw the fear in her eyes and the sorrow,It was the last time i saw my beautiful wifes hazel eyes open.God i miss you so much my wife