Tracey already knew it. I got booze and smoked. I was too ashamed to come back. I am no failure, and I will not make an excuse for why I relapsed. I am sorry I don't want you all to think I use your trust lightly. Honestly I love you all very much and if you either respond with tough love or a hug, it's ok caz I need both.

I am going to make this my sticky quit. 

Day by day, NOPE by NOPE

 

Never give up Evelyn...never....

You are always so supportive here to other quitters...all you have to do my sweetie is believe your words for yourself..

You can do this...you know you can...cut out the booze ..till your in a better place..

Xxxxx

I also am changed from meds which gimme NOW a better headstart I just know I need to kick the booze

I will always encourage you Evelyn but it doesn't matter whether we chose tough words of soft. It's only you that can make this happen!

 

I believe in you, as do others here. BUT you have to believe in YOU.

 

 

Click on the writing as I can't get it to go bigger on here ;)

It's true sunny I screwed up so many things lately I've lost confidence in myself. I need to start to trusting in my core... My heart.

I will choose to do that from of today

I am pleased you posted Evelyn, you have so much going on you need support from all corners

 

You have admitted about the booze, please get help with that!

 

Feeling ashamed can be a friend or an enemy it can make you face up and fight or make you hide and run away

 

You chose to fight for yourself

 

The booze and smoking it's all just a screen, a barrier and it will mess with your head and your meds and you will find yourself on this merry go round of too many highs and lows

 

Addiction is like a disease be it nicotine, drink, drugs whatever if its used to block stuff out then its a problem

 

 

You know we will support you when you take the first steps to help yourself as that's the only time our support can make a difference

 

Proud you came back to nope, now go apply the same strategy for whatever else you know you need

 

Love and hugs xxx

I'm sorry I understand you feel disappointed

I just care about you, Evelyn, as we all do !

 

Don't feel extra bad....use that to get yourself right.

 

We are behind you.  I am glad to see you make changes and get on the Good Foot.

 

S

I'm giving myself one chance with alcohol. If I get drunk and get sick I go to the AA. I am allowed to drink one wine, for example with new years eve. BUT I am not alcohol. Not yet and I will not turn into that. I am not my parents.
I am not a failure. I did so well in the 16 month quit. 
I do this right here, right now.

I wanna watch the video's of the tabac industries lies again; the 3 ones anyone have a link?

I can't do this shit, not right now. I'm quit but use a vaper. Judge all you want I can't do it