February 26, 201511 yr SNOW this morning almost too deep to move through... in my mind hear the Goddess of the Quit whisper ~ I will wrap you in this still, surreal, beautiful landscape while you get your bearings. SNOW was it always this white? so...bright? BEFORE the quit i would be tramping off to the corner store for smokes and stale coffee i would be standing in the blizzard, standing in some bleak outside space with my eyelashes crusted with white tightly pulling in the corners of myself puffing, scowling, cursing the snow puffing, scowling, cursing puffing puffing scowling cursing puffing like a frozen corpse in a frozen hell SNOW it swirls against the window where I am now all cozy sitting in the best seat of the upscale neighborhood cafe drinking very good espresso and eating a lemon pecan scone The Goddess of the Quit breathes blessings into my being and her breath smells like sweet candy She whispers ~ I know today, all day, you will say.... I jump in, yes, I will say... I will say ~ Nope! Not one puff! the barista has put on some kind of chiming bells music, like electronic gamelan and i could get up and dance i could hug all the coffee drinkers i could pet all the dogs under the tables licking the snow off their cold paws The Goddess of the Quit whispers ~ This is a taste of the new normal. Wow! I smile a secret smile. cpk 21 days :wub:
February 26, 201511 yr That was really cool! I enjoyed reading it :) I remember the euphoria of the early days and once in a while...i still do. It's a great feeling.. Fantastic job on the 21 days!!
February 26, 201511 yr This is the peace, you see glimpses of it now. Soon, this tide will start to turn and this will be your new normal, with an occassional trigger...moving onto a peace with an occassional thought. Remember this feeling through the hard times, this is where you are heading to. I love the term goddess of the quit. It almost feels like you believe your quit is supported and I like that for you. x
February 26, 201511 yr Author This is the peace, you see glimpses of it now. Soon, this tide will start to turn and this will be your new normal, with an occassional trigger...moving onto a peace with an occassional thought. Remember this feeling through the hard times, this is where you are heading to. I love the term goddess of the quit. It almost feels like you believe your quit is supported and I like that for you. x I have no idea who the Goddess of the Quit is...maybe it's the best part of me. I see the quit as something I am doing...but right action somehow feels to be supported because it's life affirming. I'm happy today, and Ms. SP, thanks again, for your wisdom. I'll tuck this feeling away in my toolbox. :wub: cpk
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