Muddled Quince

NOPE

I am sticking with it.....we go again this evening. The dizziness did let up with the motion sickness med and lasted all day, to which, I said, if no dizziness, then I would proceed....so here we go again, lol. Changed my event on the calendar to tonight also. If I need to vent, ramble or S.O.S., I may do so here, as all my posts be in same spot and can look back at all of my whatever. Without the dizziness, I felt normal, so guess I will do a new normal and go from there. I have a family function tomorrow, but I tell ya, if I am not up to socializing, I will stay put. My daughter in law saw my owl last night on the power lines at her driveway and sent me a picture. That owl is watching over her also....you all have a wonderful evening!!

.......I do believe some "junkie thinking" just entered, between my last post and sorting the laundry. Junkie thinking, as planning on when to throw away the smokes now, later today or in the morning. Might be the first time I have saw it that way. I may be bat crazy before this weekend is done!! I told myself....if no dizzy, then you got this.

I have the owl picture printed out and taped to the wall. Your saying on owls, seeing, but not I, was very comforting, so I may put that quote on my Owl picture. I like the gum but those nicotine lozenges but did not like them and the pouches, are something I think I would get addicted to. I done some reserching on supplements and herbs for the dizziness, that may or may not help, so I have a plan in place on that. Before I throw away this pack of smokes, I took a motion sickness pill, then took a nap and at this point, I am not near as dizzy as I was. I had reached a point, where I was dizzy, regardless of sneaking a smoke or not smoking, so I knew that my body was getting terribly confused. I also got a Magnesium spray for my feet and the essential oils in those are a wonderful aroma. I also got liquid IV, which is electrolytes and a huge bag of LifeSaver hard candies. Few mints plus a king size Almond Joy Payday candy bar for little rewards along the way. And I have not used my diffuser yet, so good time to put Breath essential oil or black pepper or something soothing in it. I will be attempting this either this evening or first thing in the morning again. I will keep the gum on standby and only use it, if I am about to cave and go to the gas station, as for me, even tho it helps, it is just delaying this nicotine withdrawal, but in the end, my not inhaling on my lungs comes first, so if I need to do the gum or patch, I will. I remember asking my husband....do you think there is any way to make this withdrawal fun instead of miserable??? He was like....I don't know, but we can try. He said, bake all kinds of cookies, maybe. We shall see. I well recall several times, through the day.....I literally shouted NO and then slammed a kitchen cabinet door, as there is something about slamming a door, in the kitchen, that is oddly satisfying. I have two shih tzu dogs and both of them would look at me and slink off, lol. Thank you for your support....

I did go back and read your May posts and I had to smile, as yes, lol, same thing here. Since I am dizzy, the one thing I thought of was it is similar to Vertigo, which I had a few times in the past. So I am going to Walmart in the morning and get the Meclizine patch and try that when I start again. It cannot hurt and it might help with the dizzy and if it does not....I have decided to just hole up in my little room for 72 hours and get through it. The gum....prefer not to, but if it keeps me from going to town, I will do the 2 mg. and chew for a few minutes, then spit it out. You did make me smile, tho....which I needed!! I may end up with a post that simply states.....3 hours, then reply 4 hours.......whatever it takes....

Oh golly, Not sure Doreen which would be worse....being dizzy or not sleeping!! I am sleeping very well, but the last two nights, smoking or vaping or something smoke related has been in my dreams. I know full well....this is where that saying on....one minute feels like an hour, so one day feels like forever. I may be a gum girl for a bit, as that has to be better then inhaling all of the chemicals and stuff. I well remember back in March where I almost made it 3 days and I remember high anxiety, brain fog and dizzy, plus I was not fully committed to it, but I did not want to let the family down and I felt that I should be stronger and able to do this. So I took a break from quitting, then tried again and again and I finally made it 12 hours. Took a few hours break, then made it to 14 hours. And at this point, almost made it 2 days. A few of those times, I did use anxiety med, which did help, although I would prefer to not take any drugs, at this time. I contribute this last attempt to an owl. Right before this last quit, I went outside and walked in the woods to try and not think, as sometimes, not thinking, then answers appear. I was standing there and I looked up and there was an owl, not very far from me. That Owl actually scared me, as he was staring at me. So I googled seeing an owl in daylight and it said, that sometimes owl's are just out through the day, as they have babies to feed and sometimes, they appear when you are trying to make a decision. So, I deduced, seeing the wise old owl, was my sign to get this done. We do follow the almanac moon signs when planting garden and stuff, so if one followed that, in 2 days, the signs would be right again. So....seems like tonight will be a good night to get quiet again, rewatch Joel's videos and decide on straight cold turkey again with the....suck it up buttercup attitude or use the gum, to just keep from inhaling smoke and maybe the moon signs. Thanks....think I needed to ramble on for a bit.

I will keep trying but I am reaching a point that the dizziness is driving me bonkers. The dizzy will let up some if I chew a piece of 4 mg. gum, which I did this afternoon, but that is still nicotine, which I am fighting, so...... What I do know, is once this heat wave here lets up, I can go out and walk farther and work in my flowerbeds. We are in the 100 heat index stage with high humidity, so few more days of that, I hope!! Cinnamon stick did not work. So I read a lot on here today.

I did cave at 7:00 this morning at 1 day and 8 hours....all it did was make me more dizzier and gave me a dry mouth. I tossed that high priced pack into the ditch on the way home also. That was the longest I have gone without in 50 years, so that, in itself, is an accomplishment. Once I reach the arguing in my head and forget that I made this choice, then my thinking goes to....wanting to sneak one, so that thinking has to go. Now, I do not feel bad, guilty or like I failed....I just have to get through this. I have done cinnamon sticks and straws with cotton inside them, but will try the cinnamon sticks again. Yesterday, I could not function at all, so was a lot of TV and reading online. Today, I have 2 grandkids, so that makes it harder. I did make lists back in March and some of them are half done. Inside and Outside work plus little 10 minute jobs and fun stuff/things I never have time for. My husband is doing the cooking and waiting on me hand and foot, so that helps. It is the dizziness....I call it....bobble head bordering on Vertigo, that is not helping. More water I will do today and I have a lot of popcicles in the freezer and will read more. Not sure where I read it, but when thoughts occur....it said to say out loud....next thought. And that thought actually does go away, but then another thought pops up and you say next thought again. Thanks for the support....

I did so today and almost at 24 hours and just posted on another post. If the dizzyness was not present on withdrawalll, but soooo much easier, but no, in my life, I have to do things the hard way!

This, ladies and gents, is an OMG post, as I almost done the S.O.S about 5 times today, but did not. I made it and I am close to 24 hours on smoke free and I am soooo craving a smoke. Been in contact with my daughter and my daughter in law, so doing good. Just took Melatonin, so will be in bed soon, but I tell ya.....I got up at close to 7:00 a.m., southern Illinois time and the dizzy plus eyes feel half shut have been there all day and still, even now. Now mind you, I can handle those 3 to 20 minute cravings and get through them, but this dizzy thing, is gonna be the undoing on me here. I did check with my eye doc and my primary doc and they both said....this is WITHDRAWAL. I did cave around 3 today and had a piece of nictine gum and felt like I was cheating, but it did keep me from going to town and spending $13.26 on a pack of smokes. So.....hoping in the morning, that the dizzy part is gone and I can do my daily day!! I did break down and used a few nicotine gums......and that helped but dam...

N.O.P.E

Well that is good to know then. Post for one's own S.O.S, is like sometimes I will journal, then go back and read as needed to remind myself. My day is just beginning KTQ and have almost 10 hours of no smoking. It already feels like it is going to be a long day, but I know, that I will not give in today. But will keep busy with Farmtown, movies and I picked up a really pretty shade of crochet yarn to try, as it has been years since I have made anything.

Why is there no posts from this year on the S.o.S board?

Thank you all for the warm welcome!! I ended up going to the eye doctor and yes, the withdrawal is affecting my eyes, which reminds me of my last chest cold, when they put me on a big antibiotic and big steroids and I walked around all day like a zombie and felt half asleep, lol....so in my mind, at this point...it is....Suck It Up Buttercup and let's get this done. I will pledge the N.O.P.E. once I do a walk around here and get rid of the NRT's and all of the other stuff. And thank you again for being here, as I know full well, come morning, it will not be pleasant!!

Hello....newbie here, but lurking for a week or so. I am a 66 year old female that has been smoking for around 50 years and have no desire to quit, but it is time, due to early stages of emphysema and do not even want to be hooked up to an oxygen tank said amount of years down the road here. Since March, I have attempted, many times to quit smoking and even tho, I have finally made it to 18 hours several times, just could not do so. I am well able to get past the 3 to 5 minute cravings, but what I thought was brain fog, eyes half shut and some dizziness, was what I thought the withdrawal was and it was unbearable and I would cave and get a smoke. I have figured out in the last couple of days, that it is due to dry eyes, which I will elaborate maybe down the way on another post. Anyway.....for this day....I deduced....smoke what I want and come tomorrow, around 2:00....I will water down whatever smokes I have and I will do this and not cave...this I know. It is a little scary tho....but, I will not fail tomorrow. So I do thank all of you for the posts that I have read that have helped me!! And I do believe, at the moment, that what I think I enjoy about smoking, will cease to exist....but....it is...a letting go of the past and time for something new.