So today is my 3rd day without a cigarette. I’m 39 and have been smoking since I was 11. I have always enjoyed smoking and never really thought I would ever stop. This is a spur of the moment decision. I haven’t even told my husband. If I am going to do this I don’t want people talking about It, which will remind me to smoke. My main struggle is that everything I enjoy, I reward myself with a cigarette. What a beautiful sunset, time to smoke a cigarette and look at it. Stuff like that. I always thought of it as a choice not an addiction. Until now!!!! Whenever I get a craving or even think of smoking my lungs get really tight and painful. Is this normal? Another thing that really concerns me is that I’m going to change. Smoking is a huge part of my relationships with family and friends. . We go out and smoke a cigarette together and socialize. I’m honestly really scaired about this. What am I going to do with myself when chatting with friends. I don’t remember the last time I was in a social situation without a cigarette in my hand. How do you get through this part of it? This is making me feel really sad like Im grieving the loss. I know that sounds crazy.