MichelleDoesntSmoke

Thank you! You're going to make it too....Congratulations to you too! Its STICKY QUITS for each of us!! C U tomorrow for the NOPE pledge!

This relapse lasted a long time. It's been ugly and difficult, full of justification, rationalization, and the belief that I just can't quit. I remember how good I felt during my long quit a few years ago. I remember being able to enjoy the smell of my shampoo, toothpaste, and mouthwash all day long. I remember being able to take a deep breath. I remember when the wheezing and crackling went away. I remember having more energy. I remember the fear of smoking related diseases was starting to ease. I remember not having to worry about how my breath and hair smelled. I remember how good my mouth tasted. I remember the feeling of victory and accomplishment, that I did something so incredibly difficult, & I did it for me and my health. Tomorrow morning I put a patch on. I am reclaiming my health and my life. I remember how delicious ice cold water tasted. I remember food tasting better. I remember how delicious ice cold water tasted, so crisp and clean and healthy. I've missed you all, this is the best smoking cessation board that I have ever found. Thank you for welcoming me back, which I'm sure you will do.

Hi Pancakes! Wow that was close. No way could I drink and maintain my quit. I don't drink....I gave up my right to drink or use other drugs because I got addicted and am now in recovery, clean and sober. Oh how I wish I could drink sometimes. Especially at get togethers. But I can't. I know I just can't, unless I want my life and health to fall apart. I'm trying to apply that same surety to smoking. I guess the point of this post is to say that for me, drinking is very very dangerous because the desire to smoke becomes stronger and the strength to fight the desire wanes. Not telling anyone else what to do but for me, its very dangerous.

And whats a paddy? LOL I'm confuuuuuused

What is the coke machine game?

.....Lemon squeezy!!!!

Cookie? Are you still here? How are you?

Thank you for the welcome back, DoreensFree! N O P E

I WILL NOT SMOKE TODAY. Boy I woke up several times before I woke up "for good" and through the fog of not being all the way awake I was wanting to smoke SO BAD. It was so bad I even thought there was no reason to get up because there was nothing worth looking forward to if I couldn't smoke. I wasn't all the way awake when I was thinking this but that's what I was feeling. Now that I'm awake, the urge to smoke is there but the desire is not. Not really. What a sick addiction. I am wearing a patch now because I tried so many times to quit cold turkey. I want to quit cold turkey so bad but since I kept giving in and relapsing I thought well, I can do THAT again or I can try something different, be patient and understanding with myself and try the NRT way. Its definitely more comfortable but I don't like that its going to be so long before I'm nicotine free. On the other hand, if it takes months to be nicotine free at least I'll get there...if I keep trying and failing to quit cold turkey then at the end of the same amount of time I COULD be still smoking.

Thanks you guys. Its really nice to be thought of and cared about! Runsfree ty for thinking about me! The suspicious cells they found are precancerous not cancer. They have to be watched but pose no immediate threat thank God. I smoked for two months after getting that news....addiction is insane

Im back after a few months relapse and thrilled to be back, even if Im a lil cranky.

Ty James. Thats what I would tell someone else but Im not as nice to myself. We are all like that to a degree, i think.

NOPE!!!

Today is Day Two. I'm slinking in with my head hanging. I'm done...no more! Please Michelle no more!

Wahoo!!!!! Evelyn you are a WARRIOR PRINCESS

Thx action. I am having a followup test tomorrow to the test that showed something that could be cancer or could be a few other things. I vote for one of the other things, and vote that it wont take too long to get the results.

Thank you so much. I am going straight home to bed. I am way sleep deprived. Will check in when home safe

Soon I hope to post that I DONT have cancer! My new job is going well! I am happy with the way my life is going (aside from the insane obsession to smoke, that is) Thanks for this thread. Great idea!

How much stress am I expected to have? Honestly! But I know smoking wont help anything. And I know you can all relate to what I'm saying. I'm super strong one moment, and a pool of jelly on the floor crying, the next

I know all the reasons not to but still want to. I hate this. Wish Id never started. Angry that i want to and cant. Or shouldnt. Or something.

I am very tired. New job is great but still a stressor. My medical appt is tomorrow to, in my doctors words "determine if you do indeed have cancer" (not lung but im sure smoking-caused) I have a headache and a stomachache. And what do I desperately want? Just One. Or Two. I might have CANCER and I still want to smoke. My God.

Daily reminders for myself: I want to stop smelling like an ashtray, being mindful to not get too close to anyone or breathe in their direction. I want to continue to be able to take a deep breath. No more shortness of breath. I dont want to suffer a long battle with a smoking related disease and die. I am grateful for day 12. I am grateful I am walking thru a cancer scare and new job stress and have not lit up. How is everyone? What are your reasons to quit and what are you grateful for?

Because an ugly sunset would be just wrong. Why does Christmas come only once a year?

Ty all!!!!!

NOPE NOPE NOPE