May 20, 20179 yr Skipping lunch with friends just so I could smoke Smelling bad Bad breath Toting around body spray and mints Dealing with the smoking mess...ashes etc Wasting money Making time to waste money Leaving early for work to get more smokes in before work Worrying all the time about next smoke Feeling icky! Feeling breathless...it's better already! HIDING MY ADDICTION! Missing out on so much to have smoke time Worrying about how my car smelled to others no matter what I did Worrying so much about my health...still will...but not making it worse Feeling bad I was harming my cat n dog Endless list But my WHAT I LOVE AS A NON SMOKER IS LONGER!!
May 20, 20179 yr Great post parsley.. I can still remember how my fingers had that horrible stale nicotine smell..so gross...
May 20, 20179 yr Filthy overflowing ashtrays. Rattling lungs Spending large amounts of money that I don't have Being an outcast in public Knowing full well what I was doing to myself and not caring.
May 20, 20179 yr It's unbelievable to me how much time was consumed thinking about & planning smoking related stuff. I never realized that while I was a smoker but I sure do now. It's also taking a long time for my brain to adjust to the "new me". I still find smoking related thoughts popping into my mind quite often. Not a desire to smoke but more of a thought about, do I need a pack of smokes, when I'm near a place I used to buy them at. That kind of thing is still pretty fresh in my mind. I do really look forward now to social gatherings where I can actually participate fully now as as non smoker. No more sneaking away for a smoke every once in a while. And traveling, whether by car or by air, is a real pleasure now. No more worrying about "getting my next Fix"!
May 20, 20179 yr Yeah, Reciprocity, it's been ingrained for so many years. It will take some time to get to the new normal. I'm a long way from that. But I'm getting there.
May 20, 20179 yr Constant nagging cough. Won,t miss that. Disappeared after 1 to 2 weeks. Feeling Great at 9 months quit. Sooooo much easier now. But will not let my guard down.
May 20, 20179 yr I didn,t know what it would feel like to be a adult and not smoke.. I had to train myself to do all tasks ,and live day to day without my little fix I love my smoke free life..I'm free...after being enslaved for 52 years.....
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