GypsyButterfly

Thanks for the welcome, Leanna. Better late than never ;)

Thanks, El B. If I beat bone cancer (no recurrences in 16 years), I can certainly get through this.

Hi, Beacon. No, I haven't read that. I'm guessing it's posted here? I'll have to read it. I like how you visualized yourself fighting the demon off. Physically being able to punch something would help me as well. Get out some of that stress. I'll try not to hit another person. Though, sometimes, I truly want to.

Thanks, Doreen. Words to contemplate. Especially about, no matter what crap is happening. There's been various kinds the past five years. It's gotten better & there is finally some ray of hope. I need to find other ways to relax & feel comforted. Smoking has been my go to thing for awhile.

Hi, Evelyn. True, I did it after. I see it, as, I could not have requested help at all. Posting this last night, I now I have something to refer to, to keep me going.

That made me smile. I need to be my own super heroine.

Tacos

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My dh & I are watching one of our favorite movies. Back to the Future

Leave the balls & other body parts alone, Sonic ;)

Thanks, Bakon. I'll have to take a up a new vice then. Hmmmm, I do like pork products :P

Thanks, BAT. At first I should probably say, NOPE out loud. It will drive the point home better.

Hi, Sunny. The logical side of me knows you're right & have to stick to that & not give into the more emotional aspect.

Thanks, Jenny. I do need to make a plan. Find something that relaxes me which isn't harmful. I have diverse interests, so, I should be able to come up with something.

You're right & I appreciate the reminder. I wish I could have heard you reading that to me. I love British accents. Have since I was a teen.

I didn't create a pre respond, because, I just saw that today & I'm in the middle of a craving. I have to admit, I had one cig yesterday. I know I should have posted here first. As I had mentioned when I joined, I only smoked a pack or less a week. It more of an indulgence for me. The other day, my voice became hoarse & was fading out. I don't know if it's smoking related, but, I'm sure it can irritate it. It came on suddenly. It wasn't gradual like some things. It would have been nice to have had a warning. I would have stopped then. The craving is partly mental, even more physical. The sensation I get in the middle of my chest which was satisfied after a few puffs. I long to have that relieved. I really want my voice strong again, though. Which is why I'm here & trying to fight it. Thanks for the support.

Yea, me :) I spy....something which begins with, C

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Thanks, Sonic. I was going to say that's sweet, but, no punching anyone anywhere ;)

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The Hunt with John Walsh

Hi, El B. When I say, I only smoked a pack or less a week, I meant it. That's how it was for five years. Every now & then, I'd smoke three or even four cigarettes in a day. Especially with four, I found it was way too much. Two give me a nice buzz. More than that, it's usually overload. It was just an indulgence for me. The reason I'm here is because my voice suddenly became hoarse & would fade in & out. I've been trying not to talk. Which means, I can't do my work in customer service. I haven't been smoking & yesterday my voice was much better. I had a mocha (which I haven't had in ages) & kind of lost my voice again. Apparently, caffeine can have an affect on it. If this continues, I'm going to have to get it looked into.

Hi, BAT. Since I was a casual smoker, maybe it will be like that for me as well.

I really appreciate the encouragement, Jengels :)