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Tough emotional week, like gritty tough. Living on my nerves but wasn't really concerned about my quit which felt safe and of course, is still safe. My kids are away for the weekend so I can relax and maybe I just drunk too much? Mum lit up in front of me, a conversation went horribly wrong with Chris, then from nowhere - massive crave! Like huge crave, what the hell, where from?! Before I know it I'm out of bed and hunting the house for cigarettes...jeez, really have no idea! I got to the point where I wasn't sure what i would do when i found them so posted an sos, wanted to make sure i was accountable. I'm still shaky emotionally, that was very real and very raw. Don't want to smoke, my quit is as safe as it can be but I feel like crud and exhausted :(

Posted 18 July 2013 - 02:05 AM I had planned on waiting to drink any alcohol until I hit 3 months, at least. Whenever I drank, I smoked a LOT. I was avoiding it, I think because I really want this to be my first and only quit. Well, you know how it goes when you have something perfectly planned out, right? Yes, I drank earlier tonight. Yes, I enjoyed myself. No, I didn't have any problems. In fact, I only had one quick thought about smoking and it was gone as quick as it came. It wasn't a craving, just a thought; an association really. It is so nice to live my life free of the pathetic cigarette.

Posted 05 July 2013 - 06:10 PM Like the title says :D . I am so happy to be a non-smoker that I FINALLY threw out my ashtray. Before I quit, I made sure there were no cigarettes left. The ashtray, on the other hand I wasn't ready to get rid of so soon. You see, I don't think I believed that I could quit. I'm going to be honest and say I did not expect my quit to last even a day. "Clearly, you were wrong", says the ticker. Never have I been so happy to be wrong. It's almost like pinching yourself to check if you are dreaming. Only instead of pinching, I keep looking at my ticker. Not only did I toss out the ashtray, but I found an old coffee can with butts in it - I forced myself to open the can and take a big whiff. Uh, nasty or as we say around here wicked nasty. Definitely a motivator not to smoke :). Now it's not all rainbows and sunshine and I know there will be plenty of speed bumps along the way. That's why I'm here. I think I finally realized that it's possible to not smoke and I CAN do this :D .