I got adjusted on meds.. I was reflecting and realised; I've been in hell all my life and now I'm out, and can FEEL and KNOW what happyness can be like, and what it can be to be touched, moved...   I love life. For all quitters on the train. Being a mess, being in hell- a mental hell, CAN get better. depression CAN go away. Find a good psydoc, work your ass off (I do) and you can and will get better, your hell starts falling apart. That man, I used to know as a father is ash, he no longer has power. I took back control. I am Stronger!

I am survivor and yes I do have Dissociative Identity Disorder, so technically I'm a we :P but Ev is good too ;) but never quit life, never give up hope, be a fighter, be the seemingly hopeless struggler... you'll come out winning. 

And I'm truly saying, néver give up. I told ya peeps I would be back ;) But HOW, now thát is a huge difference  ^_^ 

If you never experienced happyness, being moved/touched by something, love... WOW, I now can feel those things. And I'm happy!!!   

Are there no tears, of course, life's a rollercoaster  :aggressive: you gotta kick some ass here and there for example smokes hey I'm winning this, no chance of loosing it again and to you all,

 

:heart:  

 

For your patience, friendship, silent prayers, hope of me returning. 

 

Oh the tattoo, I did as closure in first initiativ for the last year but now--for the last years  

Nice positive post sweetheart...

Stay happy...and smoke free...your in the driving seat EV....xx

You should cut and paste this post into your blog to remind yourself in dark times that the sun will shine again.

Well, my dark ages... were ages, years :( sadly enough. I'll post it

 

Can I post my pm to you too Saz? It says a lot ;)

So raise you hand if you like my tattoo???