Hi all! I'm happy to be here and finally to the point where I'm ready to quit.
A little background on me....I started smoking in college and continued smoking until after I got married and decided to start a family. We had 2 beautiful children and a few years ago we both started smoking again. Then came the worse year of my life. In late 2017 my husband told me he wanted a divorce after 15 years of marriage and my mom, my best friend, was diagnosed with stage IV gastric cancer. I was devastated, overwhelmed, all of the above! My mom passed July 2018 and my divorce was finalized on the same day she passed. So there I was....I had lost my best friend and now had to face the reality that I was a working single mom of 2 little ones, trying to care for them, my dad and myself.
I've grown a lot in this past year. I've ridden the grieving train....hell, I drove it....and still am. Life isn't easy, but it's getting easier and I'm finally starting to plan a future. I've quit a couple times over this past year...my longest was about 2 weeks. I'm finally to the point where I'm short of breath, I've got a terrible cough and it's just not enjoyable to me anymore. I'm ready to have "the talk" with my habit and break up with it so i can move on to a healthier place in my life. So I'm hoping I can get the support I need here to get this done!!