as i look to my left hand to grab the cigs and lighter, i realize there is nothing there. there is a very slight feeling of panic......that passes quickly. a week ago i panicked if i had less than 3 packs at bed time. it's a crazy journey i'm on. the urge passes more quickly every day. it's actually funny to look and see nothing there. you folks on this forum seem to know what is needed.....tonight i needed the funny posts......you helped me through another night and i appreciate it. i wish you all could come to the bar when i'm working.....first one is on me !!! thanks to all of you for caring about another persons well being.