Sometimes on the Journey we take a step back

I'm nearly at 4 months quit, and there is no way that I want to go back to smoking but I could sure as hell have one today. The Quit Smoking Journey is a lot of walking slowly up hill and then speed racing down the otherside with the wind blowing in your face, Going up and down these hills on a daily basis becomes part of our life, we get used to it, Then all of a sudden you come to the bottom of a mountain, looking up all we can see are pitfalls, crevices hidden from us, but there waiting to open beneath us and let us fall, ice and dark clouds, do you want to climb this mountain it looks impossible, how can we do it alone, its scary, maybe we should turn back, but then we stop for a minute and take a step back................we realise that nothing is impossible, we have the tools to climb this mountain, we have help from others to push onward, we can overcome the pitfalls, we can climb over the crevices with our tools, we will not fall, the ice we can avoid and the dark clouds will go and the sun will hopefully shine, As I said there is no way that I want to go back to smoking but I sure as hell could have one today, I'm at the bottom of the mountain, but I have the tools and the friends to push forward. So I took a step back and I started to climb..................