this upcoming birthday will be my first one in years that i wont be smoking. 

im super happy about that but also a little nervous, as i celebrate a birthday week, not just one day. and holidays are hard for me. my birthday always begins the holidays. i always joked about it..dear god. here goes my mind and innards until january 5th.

its normally a lot of noise and alcohol. drama. BUT...heres my plan. im too busy to be smoking. *reminds self repeatedly*

 

im going to eat a lot of sushi, sashimi,  rare steak, and dark chocolate. (favorite things in my mouth other than...well you know).

im going to a winery with a couple girlfriends, and dont have to be home by 9pm. non-smoking limo. (girlfriends idea, not mine..tho i thanked them for that. they really do love me)

philly strip clubs. BOOBS!!!

 

im going to have the longest goddamn bubble bath ever. usually ill do that on the official day anyway, but this year ill actually be all alone. its going to be spectacular!

no one knocking on the bathroom door, or talking to me through it, asking if im okay because ive been in there a half hour already, and when is dinner????.... it takes a ******* half hour just to get the bubbles right dammit. and wait? dinner?? hah. im NOT cooking dinner this birthday.

 

facial. (avacado and oatmeal just for clarification ).  wine. candles, a bit of marilyn manson and classical piano in the background, (favorite things in my ears) which will sound like a concert for one because you know...echo. loud. i like my music LOUD. bathroom music. bose. singing into the showerhead.

i may even masturbate in there...because I CAN! OMG i can see if my vibe really is waterproof!!!

i can even take the computer in and chat away while having a bath. or watch porn. AND watch porn!! heyyyyyyy now!

 

hour long full body massage, mani-pedi.

visiting a friend overnight sat-sun who i havent seen since her daughters funeral. 

loving catchup time.

 

i see no stress in this week. in fact, there really hasnt been much going on at all. its weird, but i cant even say how grateful for the quiet i am.

 

or have ever been.

 

im going to practice a whole lot of self love this week.

 

by sunday night, ill be so ready for alex to come home from my sisters and snuggle.

 

until then?

 

DUDE..WHERES MY CAR?

FERRIS BUELLERS DAY OFF.

WEEKEND AT BERNIES.

ANIMAL HOUSE.

 

STRIPPERS!!!

 

 

we will talk about turkey later.

i hate turkey.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You will be fine for your birthday! you are already celebrating being you and smoke free, it's simply an extention :)

 

Your plans sound very entertaining :)  Maybe you should add a setting of new goals for your next birth year, I love doing that on my birthday...one new self development thing to work on.  

 

Anyway, off to repeat the words "dude" and "sweet", I love that film too!!

Bat does all that stuff every Tuesday.