Sarah, bugger I was asleep!!  Where are you?  How are you??  We all do that crave, we all do that sob, you are ok and you don't need to smoke because of it. Damn addiction can't have you, you will be free - you are already marching to that freedom!!  This party sounds like a nightmare!! Can you skip it??  You got this covered chick, it's just emotions, we are women, we can ride out the emotions and they pass - this too will pass!!  Remember that when it feels intense, it's just a moment in time, it goes away!! Why now? Because it's that time, we are addicts for nicotine honey - we are recovering. That emotion is you facing down a trigger that is yours and going NOPE, because I choose not too. Massive hugs, and I sayagain, i it hasn't already passed it really will. xx

Finally home. Drunk. Didn't smoke!