2 April

Still delighted to be FREE.      Can't spend too much time pondering the choices of the past.  The  consequences and results of all my past choices will reveal or heal as I THRIVE on....with all the opportunities  life brings.

The teeth and gum pain is such that in normal times I would head to the dentist.  Being in far from normal times, I am choosing to self treat with many salt water rinses and using the water pik with hydrogen peroxide mix. 

Cravings are few and vary in duration (never more than a few minutes) and really feel more like celluar memory of what I am "supposed to do" at certain times or in certain circumstances.  Different thinks and things to do now.                                                EZPZ as Sarge says.

Scared.  grateful for the people here on QT.   I feel closer and more connected to many of you than most anyone else right now.  Thanks everyone for being here learning, healping, gaming, chatting.... really appreciate your presence and gifts more than I can explain.   Am in touch with close friends and family, too,   ... feeling disconnected and scared for many of them... and many of us.

Stay safe people.  Be kind to yourself and each other.      I wish there were a way for me to safely help in a different manner than only staying home.     I hope I see my parents and siblings again.

DEEPLY GRATEFUL none of these scary maudlin thoughts ignite the desire to smoke.

O yeah... I don't fing smoke.  happy laughing!!!!