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Thank you Paul, my body doesn`t want me to smoke, it`s my brain who wants. But it`s normal, after so many years. It`s not easy, i`m starting to feel it..nor it`s impossible. I`m doing the best thing i have ever done for myself, and i want to make it till the end. :rolleyes:

Yes i make it room temp. Not hot, not cold. Hmm, i put mint, that green leave. i have a mint plant on my balcony :D

well, i`m going to tell you one, it doesn t have much ingredients, but it` s not very simple either. You make the green tea as normal (max 2 min infused) then you let in turn cold. Squeeze some lemon, as much as you like, put 2 fresh mint leaves, and only if you like some honey. And it`s a good tea :) you can make it hot too, but for me works better room temperature. I never tried doing it very very cold, because our body suffer when we do that. But i think depends from person to person. :D

Thank you, thank you!! You are all so good to me, i am stunned :wub: I am doing good so far, i have had cravings but nothing hurts, it`s all in my head. It`s like my mind speaking "hmm,ok,so you`ve done the dishes, how about a little deamon?" But i`m like NOPE B) B) B) B) B) B)

Aaa, i don`t look at that kind of movies. But that time was by "accident". And i felt their pain as if i was them. And it happend. It was that moment. Something shifted. I didn t even looked at all the movie. I was crying bad. I cannot say much about what happend inside me then, except i felt so much suffering. But with cigarettes i was always pretending i don`t see what happens. Maybe if someone would have made a movie in wich he was slowly killing me i would have give up until now. But what the hell? I have to work on my confidence, and my strengh and my willpower. There`s no accident it is so hard for me to break this addiction. I`m emotionally stucked on it. But the harder, the more good i will feel after, the better i know i will never get back to them. Ever. NOPE

First of all i will do cleaning. Because i smoked in the house, sitting on the couch. And now i don`t feel the smell but in 3-4 days i know my nose will be disturbed :) And deep breaths. I will just take care of myself. The time i was using for smoke, i will use it for myself, not against anymore. Anything, drink a tea, watch a nice movie, scrach my dog`s belly, cooking dinner, taking baths, exercising, and so many other things i can do them for myself. Don`t think i wasn t doing them before, but this time i want to put meaning to everything i do. I want to give myself some love, respect, appreciation and kindness. I refuse to let nerves control me just because i remove what`s bad in my sistem. I will be kind and i will appreciate any effort i make towards healing myself :) :wub:

Marti, i have juices and smoothies and salads, because ironically i`m a vegetarian. And ironically i gave up eating meat about 6 years ago, after i saw a movie in which animals were sacrificed. ( I don`t have nothing against people who eat meat, don t misunderstand me) Just that i couldn t eat meat anymore, and i never felt the need to eat it. I say ironically because after that, my mom was looking for movies about smoking, that is dangerous and everything...she was saying.."if you don `t eat meat because of a movie, maybe will work with cigs too". But as you see, it didn`t. So here i am

Thank you again ! To everybody!! I am from Romania, i made my "timing" on quit mater and there sais i m smoke free 2 h and 40 mins ago, but actually i am with about 4 hours :) just gifted me a bonus :) I feel good until now, i had a nap. Now i try to figure out what to do with the time i have. It s not necesarely that i want to smoke, but it s an idea in my head.. it s habitual too. I`m resisting!! I`m a non smoker now :D :D DevilDoll i know i`m only 23, but believe me, i can`t wait to feel young again. Because right now i feel like a little bored, without life, without energy sh**. This is why i`m mad at me. I didn t like smoke and i still don`t. I have always putted that in my mouth and fire them , and eveytime i was doing that i was feeling worst and worst. Physically but more important emotionally. So without realising i surrendered myself to them at some point. But now i`m taking my life back. It is the addiction and the habit that i have to "kill" now. And it`s in my head i admit. That little deamon. But today before the nap , i was in bed with my dog, and i was thinking. My little dog has to accept what i give her to eat. She cannot say i want that or that. She just have to eat whatever i decide it`s good for her. And yes, i love her and i give her everything is good for her. Now from a more spiritual point of view, i`m a soul and i live in this body. So what connects me to this body i have is the fact that i live inside this "house". What if "the soul" feeds "the house" only good stuff. No more fire, no more smoke in the house. No more "911 help!! the house is burning" :) :)

Thank you all for the kindness and motivation you`re giving to me. I`m confident in this moment, yet i know it won`t be easy. But your support and all the information on the site will help me go through, i don`t doubt that. Going forward, not looking back ^_^ Oh, btw action, my name is iulia...but the keyboard makes i (with caps look) look like L. It`s funny..Lulia :)

Totally NOPE !!

Hello everybody! My name is Iulia, i`ve been smoking since i was 14 (because it felt like it is cool back in that time) and now i`m almost 23. So i`ve been a smoker for about 9 years, most of the time 1 - 1 half pack a day, but i have had darker periods when i was going to 3 packs a day!! I really really don t like smoking, i`m not the person who says "it relaxes me" or anything like that. Personally, if i smoke and only smoke a cigarette, i get bored as hell. But as i was usually smoked when on computer, or tv, i didn t paid attention, i was like a robot. I know i smoke because i`m really addicted but i am ready to go through hell if it`s needed, in order to stop feeling miserable and to stop feeling that i don`t like myself, and all of the things smoking makes me feel. I know this will be very difficult for me, i tried to stop a lot of times, so many times i don`t knoww the number, but only 1 time i went 2 days...the other times not even 1 day. Probably i have some kind of lack of will, because i tried so many times. But this time i really feel i found what i need, i really think that if i`ll come here everyday, reading posts, seeing how other people succesful quit, i will realize i can do it too! And to say, i just had my last one. From this moment on, i`m smoke-free, second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by days by years!! I`m sorry if i have mistakes in my writing, i`m not a native english speaker. I wish you all a great day, patience and much love!