StellaBlue

thanks everybody for the welcoming me! and thank you for all the suggestions. these are the worst cravings i have experienced since quitting!! hoping something will help!! the first time i quit, while i was definitely (constantly!!) miserable for quite some time, i feel like the patches really helped with the cravings. this second time, they do not seem to be helping me as much. sighhh! also dealing with a constant feeling of tension is not enjoyable either!! lung disease is prevalent in my family. my mom has end-stage COPD at a relatively young age, and was just recently in the hospital for 3 weeks with respiratory failure. while at the hospital, i was having to leave her bedside to run outside to smoke. the consequences always seem so far off in the future, but i feel like i have a much better understanding of what can happen now. it's scary, and the fact that i am still struggling with quitting even though i know the consequences in great detail is even scarier!!!!!!

Ugh. I smoked for 10 years, quit for 2.5, smoked for 2, and now quit again. 3 weeks and 1 day in. 21 mg patches. I am on my first vacation since quitting, and it feels like every activity is a major craving. Like I can't enjoy a single thing about it, and even worse, rather than happy or even content, just torture instead!! It feels too hard. I know it should get better but it feels impossible or so off in the distant future that it doesn't matter. Anyway I always come by here when I need to feel community and support, and finally decided to sign up. I am happy this exists, it has been a big help though I have never posted till now.