prism

To be honest Recip. I am committed to staying away. I have to be honest with myself and others that I am an addict and always will be. It is very humbling to finally understand the full extent of my addiction. Thank you for taking the time to respond and for your encouragement.

Thanks for the responses and support everyone! Back in the eighties I worked on Wall St as a broker. It was a very high stress situation. You could smoke at your desk; if it helped you do business, that's all they cared about. Smoking was the first and last thing I did everyday.

My name is Vince and I "quit" smoking on 2/13/19. I put quit in quotes because the quit was done for me. I was diagnosed with pneumonia and was so sick that for the first time in my adult life I could'nt consider smoking. You could say I got a "Get of Jail For Free " card. I went through the worst part of withdrawal without even realising it. Now, I'm 72 days into this and I miss the hell out of it! I feel like an integral part of me is missing. It's so sick, it's disgusting! My teeth are ruined from this awful habit. God only knows what other damage I did to myself over the past 40 years of smoking. For the record, I smoked 4 packs a day for 20 years and then went down to 2 packs. I was never going to quit because I was too weak to deal with the withdrawal. I admire and commend all of you that had the courage to commit to quitting and saving yourselves. Thank you for listening to my story!