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I hope so too. I so want to be a non smoker. I just have to ignore the mindset that it tricks me into thinking, it is the only thing I have in my life that is mine or gives me happiness. It controls me not the other way around. It’s a strange thing how it makes you believe things. Personally it makes me think I deserve to have it in my life, I don’t drink a lot, I don’t spend money on myself like other people, I don’t go out to eat too much. I give up stuff I want to do or have for the family, etc. so why can’t I have this. Lots of people do things that aren’t the best for them why can’t I have this. Problem is there is things that are bad for you then there are things that kill you. My cousin my best friend in the world just went through the Last year dealing with anoriexia and bulimia she is in her late 40’s. She kept it a secret for 20years. She said in her lowest moments she didn’t care if it killed her, just don’t make her have to stop. She is getting better now, I can too. Thanks for the support. P.s. What does everyone do when they get a craving ? Distract yourself, eat, mints,etc ?

Well may or may not be good timing. Headed out on tropical vacay tomorrow that is non smoking resort. I,figured as good as time as any, especially since been trying 2 quit since New Years. I have never made it more than 2 weeks with the exception of pregnancies quit the entire time then. The times of have made it 2 weeks has been because taking test for health insurance. Very shameful closet smoker, try to keep hidden. So envious of people who never started. Hoping warm weather helps, but will still be tempted to sneak down the block. Just trying to remember how many people I know who have quit, including my parents, etc. .