bluebus828

HI, there is nothing i am doing to help myself. i am not able to cope with anxiety this time. i used to deal with it in different ways earlier. none of them are working now. Nitin

please somebody...even the thought of going through hat i went through yesterday is messing me up pretty bad.......how will i be able to do it......but i cannot live like this anymore. cant sleep cant do anything....the anxiety is off the charts.i feel whether i have some other underlying issues which i need to address or is it the smoking messing me up.cant figure it out. how do i build a positive attitude.how do i go and conquer this habit with a positive attitude.i feel sick to my gut and my legs are killing me.so is my back.

Hi, So i relapsed again. i had a few smokes by afternoon. And I did not enjoy them. the continuous withdrawl doesnt end unless i can break the cycle. But ill try and quit again today. I have the training what caused my downfall.I thought I could smoke one. The fear doesnt let me quit and the mind fog.The mind fog just messes me up where I cannot think straight but i now know that nicotine addiction is temporary and i have to fight through it . No matter what. My withdrawl is so intense 24/7 i cannot even describe it. Gotta keep myself busy here from now on.i smoked just to break the intense negativity i was going through. or do something else.even gathering thoughts becomes difficult at times.But ill stay strong. Atleast I am not going through a disease. I just wonder why did i waste so much time smoking.that is what causes my downfall. but Not One Puff Ever from now on.and i promise ill give it three days no matter what i go through.even if i go mad trying but ill not give in this time. Nitin.

when will it get easier will i keep struggling like this. or will it get better. its just the negativity I am not able to control.

Nearing 12 hours of my quit. and i am thinking if i could just have one. I know its the junkie thinking creeping in. but what i would do to have a cigg.went from 20-25 a day to nil

Well, why am i quitting. to have better physical and emotional health. RIght now I am drained 24/7 without the ability to function properly. So quitting smoking might help me understand what it actually feels like to be free.

and the bad memories of the previous quit keep coming back ........that it gets even worse i am also not able to smoke due to smoking...... although i smoked about 20 a day....... cant even make cohesive thoughts right now.

So its 6 am and I am at my usual time when i go out to buy my cigarettes and smoke like a chimney. not today though. but its getting really hard to stay sane ....i am the 10hour mark and going crazy. My case is a little different I dont get hungry, instead i eat less when trying to quit and I start wretching like I need to get something out of my system. I am actually going crazy right now.

ok 2:53 i just had a major panic attack. am i losing my mind. and i am only 7 hours into the quit. what is going on. can barely think straight too.is this the physical part of the quit.

2:34 am here.....had another strong crave and i feel like puking. its already getting really tough. I just have too many regrets....I feel i missed a lot of opportunities and wasted a lot of time smoking. i just realize how smoking actually controlled most of my adult life and now I have to go through this withdrawl hell.can barely sleep.

So i am 6 hours into my quit , woke up from mid sleep two hours back........ had an intense crave but i fought it. having difficulty sleeping again though. im trying to hang in. lets hope i can get through the morning. I sometimes think how is this thing even legal...it has such a hold on your life . If only i can get rid of the dwelling.

any one here on a spiritual journey........my spiritual quest is stalled too.

thankyou for the support will need much more of it during rough times.

Hi, I am currently suffering from anxiety and depression and i think i should just quit smoking because it is taking a toll on my health. i know this means more anxiety and more depression but i hope it will get better after three days. I have no option left. it is taking a toll on me. I am 32 and been smoking for the past 15 years. im upto a pack a day right now. failed numerous quit attempts. I dont have much to keep myself busy with and i live in the toughest environment possible. Also i have become insecure about myself which messes with my mind when i quit smoking.that is like the biggest hurdle in my quit smoking process. I am financially secure and well educated and extremely sharp . Its just that i am still insecure.Dont know why. i get into retrospective thinking a lot.I have a rare form of cystic acne which scars easily which messes me up too and plus i am greying prematurely. You might be thinking what a dumb thing to say.i think i have BDD.gotta ditch the mirrors, so you can imagine how hard this quit is gonna be. wish me luck.But i think if I quit smoking i will have the courage to fight everything and my anxiety levels will go way down.I am going to open up here in ways i havent done before.i think i need to express myself while quitting smoking. hope to get some support through tough times. NItin.