michshea

Hi there , I have not yet quit but have set myself a quit date for the 18th of this month . This morning I registered at my local chemist for the stop smoking program and was able to choose 3 nrt aids , I went for the gum , inhaler and spray . I really need to stop smoking , I also have asthma and still continue to smoke , obviously I know this is so so bad but I guess this is the power of smoking . I work 5 days a week for 5 hours at a time and have managed to hide the fact that I smoke as I can go these 5 hours without smoking , as soon as I walk out that door I hide and smoke 2 in a row , when I get home I go to the garden and smoke again and again and again . I have 3 kids my eldest being 18 he knows I smoke but my younger 2 do not know , my husband hates the fact I smoke but then so do I . Now I am 40 I know I really need to stop, I do not want smoking to be the thing that got me I am telling myself its now or never , I have young children and my husband and myself to think more of than smoking , my daughter trains as a gymnast 14 hours a week at age 8 and I keep telling myself look how hard she is working towards her dream while you are at home puffing away in the garden . Anyway this is my story , going to spend the next week gathering all the info I can get as I know my sanity is at stake here :D