Day two, kind of....

Allen Carr's book said that strategizing when a good time to quit is can be difficult.. if you quit in a stressful time we'll want a cigarette even more and if we quit in a non stressful time we'll have no need to quit because we think smoking relieves stress... haha.. I think his point was that we all so don't get that we think we smoke to relieve stress and in reality we stress because we smoke, we don't want to smoke and the minute we put one down we're anxious about when we'll be able to smoke the next one.

Anyway, I mention the stress part since yesterday was my first day. Did I do perfect?? No unfortunately I didn't.. I have a boxer dog that I have had since he was 6 weeks old. He is now almost 11 and we aren't sure what's wrong with him but a trip to the vet and blood tests were done. We know by his behavior that something is seriously wrong, possibly heart or cancer? So yes, I had a stressful day and night. I had two cigarettes and guess what?? It did NOT make me feel better... not one bit. It made me feel worse because then I had to start my hours and days all over again and it did nothing to make my dog better or give me any relief... geez, so I guess now I know why I need to make every hour an accomplishment. I had my last puff at 4 pm yesterday, so I've made it 12 hours. I can't sleep and all I want to do is write and cry and pray for my dog. Boxer's aren't known to live long lives but of course I was hoping for another couple years. 13 is about maximum for them.