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I don't want to smoke. I'm angry and sad. I'm unhappy. I'm feeling all the feels. Day 7. This is what happens. I get flooded with emotions that I used to smoke away. Open the floodgates....here they all come overcoming me. I start assessing everything and want to shake it all up. Ugh.

 

I don't want to smoke, but I want to smoke. I want the feels to go away. I can handle them little by little but not when they all come at once. I'm a love seeker. And when I make myself vulnerable and strip away my vice I start questioning my purpose, my relationships, etc. it's as if my uncomfortableness with not smoking equates my uncomfortableness in life. I get confused if I'm just uncomfortable from withdrawal or since I feel so crappy, everything in my life must be f'ed up too?!?

 

Help this is when I get in trouble. This is when I want a cig to fix it all!!

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Hey kiwi, take a deep breath and relax you are overthinking this way to much. Don't let your mind get you in trouble. Sip some water, google stop smoking and just read. It will pass I promise you. Stay with us. This is the right place for you.

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Kiwi...sorry I'm late..time difference...

Well done for posting a SOS...bat is right ..our brains..they can be our own enemies...

You smoked 20..a day...for days,weeks years decades...our bodies are pretty messed up..

You have been feeding your body all kinds of chemicals..we carnt expect it to heal in a few days...

It will take time..you need to read all you can here..so you understand what is happening and why...

Push forward.... It's does get better...you have a family here ,telling you it does...

Stay close here ,and post as often as you want or need to...

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Hey kiwi, take a deep breath and relax you are overthinking this way to much. Don't let your mind get you in trouble.

 

When in doubt, stop and breathe...deeply.  Breathing deeply and being mindful of each breath will calm the mind and lower the heart rate.  When everything slows down a bit, it is much easier to process what needs to be done.  Calm and slow are good.  Frantic and fast typically only produce more stress.

 

Your body is healing and your mind is adjusting.  This process is worth every moment of agitation.

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Bat I hope you made it through the crisis.... without smoking. Stay busy and do things that make you happy and relaxed. Do you have a hobby something you really enjoy doing?

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Check in with us Kiwi and let us know how you are doing. We all want to do whatever we can to help you stay with your quit. It is overwhelming at times but you just need to breathe deeply (as others have said) and stay with your quit. It will get better with time. You were not born with a cigarette and a nicotine addiction, you acquired that along the way. You can get back to your original non-smoking self by just never taking another puff. Your body and mind will adjust in time and you'll have taken your life back. Stay with us Kiwi :) If I can do it; so can YOU!

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Bat I hope you made it through the crisis.... without smoking. Stay busy and do things that make you happy and relaxed. Do you have a hobby something you really enjoy doing?

Thanks DG, my crisis was averted 3 years ago ;) Lets hope Kiwi made it through this one.

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I made it though.  I know how to persevere!!  I'm just watching for the the triggers that have caused me to relapse in the past.  And every single time it is strong emotions!!  So I need to learn how to better handle them...normally exercise does the trick.  But since I have been sick the last week, that has been out of the question. 

 

I will be okay...thanks for resonding

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Good to hear Kiwilee :D Sounds like you have a great attitude on this quitting thing and will be able to handle the challenges that come at us all during our journey. You are just now getting through the worst of it so hang tough and take back your smoke-free life :training1: 

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I made it though.  I know how to persevere!!  I'm just watching for the the triggers that have caused me to relapse in the past.  And every single time it is strong emotions!!  So I need to learn how to better handle them...normally exercise does the trick.  But since I have been sick the last week, that has been out of the question. 

 

I will be okay...thanks for resonding

 

Good work Kiwi.  Every crave episode encountered successfully lends to the process of rewiring your brain.

 

Proceed.

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Yay! This is so cool witnessing this whole rallying process! Well done Kiwi - you're showing me how it's done ;)

 

Best bit of wisdom I will be holding onto in the next few days is that nicotine doesn't change the way we ultimately feel about the trigger/ ourselves etc - in fact it only makes us feel worse. Our issues will still be there whether we smoke or not, but if we quit then addiction won't be blocking the way to us being able to deal with them and being a stronger more sick ass self.

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