intoxicated yoda

On 3/14/2022 at 7:11 AM, Linda said:

@jillar Thanks for sharing your story with us.

So sorry for your struggles!! Also for all you do 

here and the support and kindness to all on

the train.❤

 

 

This...I can't say it any better.

i can't do a year....but i can do tomorrow.  

see yas tomorrow!!  and thanks for the chat.  i helped far more than you know.

thanks. @jillar i try to keep that in mind and hope it's the one that'll get me past the unceasing cravings.  do you recall roughly how long it was before you actually felt like you were over it? I quit once for about 4 years but it's been 26 or 27 years since i started back again and i've no recollection of how or what i did to get through it.  i only know what the trigger was to start me back which is highly unlikely to happen again.

honestly...even tho i've been quit for a few weeks, the cigs are still in control.  I'm still an abstaining smoker.  Most of my thoughts are dominated by the quit but that's okay.  it has to be this way.  my quit is a garden and right now it's full of weeds so it's going to take all my focus and effort to get all the weeds pulled.  then once all the weeds are pulled it's going to take daily monitoring for new sprouts of weeds so i can dig down and find the roots.  later it will take weekly monitoring for more weed sprouts so i can dig down further and get the rest of the roots.  and then when i've gotten all the roots out and all the weeds are gone and there are only beautiful blooming flowers in my quit garden i still have to be vigilant in monitoring for weeds cause seeds will blow in on the wind from who knows where and they will pop up when and where i least expect them.  but that is life.  the garden, whatever it is be it quitting smoking or playing piano, must be tended.  to do otherwise is to stop living.