Kris

You are all a bunch of potty mouth people LOL

Sorry I had a big freak out. It can be good to be tested and get through it.

Here

Sorry guys, had a meltdown, panic attack.  I did not smoke, I just went to bed to let it pass.

I am going to stop crying and just try to go sleep until this passes.

I am having a crisis and want to smoke.  I have been strong but I am close to losing control

Congratulations on a great quit!  In your honor I will have 2 lovely sunnyside up eggs for breakfast.  I also will not smoke after breakfast!  Keep it going!

10. Pinch someone.

Kitchen Strainer

The old saying "hard work pays off" really counts!! Congratulations!!!!!!

I do count them as a vegetable serving! LOL

It is a great thing you have done, you have learned to love yourself and be committed to your health.  I remember when you joined the board, struggling and confused.  Now look at you, you have done it! You have changed your life for the better.  I know you must feel better physically and mentally. I am sorry to hear that Anita is smoking again.  I know the two of you love each other very much.  At the end of the day, sometimes, we have to do what we feel is best for our health.  In the big picture each of us is responsible for our own health.  I hope at some point she will see how much better you feel since you quit. When she is ready she will follow your lead.  For now keep on going....

I think the brain fog thing is from the covid, but I do like your choice in cough syrup!

I am happy with anything, just glad we are doing it! I don't care what you call me as long as you don't call me a smoker!

I thank you all so much for your well wishes! Not going to tell a lie, I still want to smoke but at least at this point I know I am not going to do it.  I may go to the grave wanting to smoke but I will be proud of how I got there without smoking.

THANKS AGAIN

6. Hang a tire swing

Well, you are the second purple being in my life, the first was Barney, my son's favorite.  I may be crazy but I am consistent. 

Okay, got it, I would need the 275 paracord to hang myself. Good to know, I don't want to mess up if it comes to that LOL

What the heck is a paracord, can't play if I do not know what the heck it is LOL

Okay, this is embarrassing, but I dreamt of you last night. A purple walrus, what is down with that? I also dreamt of Opah? Do I just have people on my mind I don't know but care about?  Is it because I am struggling too?  I do not have a clue.  The only thing I know for sure is that I care about how others are doing.  I care about their struggles. It makes me keep fighting for sure. I am blessed to have one friend here that I talk to that listens to me bitch, whine and moan about all my troubles. I am surprised she has not sent me a bill for services rendered.  

The point I am trying to make is that this place works.  We can come here and throw our struggles to the wind, discuss our difficulties whatever they may be, celebrate any wonderful things that come into our life. We can count on acceptance, advice, congratulations and support. 

I know you have had a hard time with this as have I.  I want to smoke, right here, right now but I am not going to do it because I am here typing these words.  I know that strength is coming, I just need to be patient for the next post that will calm my shattered nerves. Just realize it is okay to struggle, it is okay to ask for help, it is okay to be patient for strength.  That is the only way to get thru this, one minute at time, I know you can do it because I am doing it.  I am patient! 

Watching "You've got mail" Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan in the good old days.  Good romantic comedy, Wish movies were made like this today.  Fun for the family no foul language. No violence, no nude or so called inferred things,  They make some and I have my head in the sand.

Watched some Lonesome Dove earlier today and the pulled out my copy of  John Waynes' the "Quiet Man".  Trying to keep engaged to help deal with the demon cravings.  Please let me know of other movies you love, I need to expand and add new favorites to my dependable list.  Hope every one is doing well with their quit.

You have done better than me. I just made some rotel cheese dip and had that with a few fritos.  I did have a proper dinner yesterday, ribeye steak, roasted aspar agus and black eyed peas.  Still in that tired don't give a darn mood  but I am much better since we talked.  I am counting the minutes until I think I can go to bed and sleep.  How is Lily?  Is she feeling better? I did manage to get enough strength to bath one dog and give him a trim.  He is still mad.  He will be more angry when I take him to the groomer and get everything shaved off for the summer.  Have a great evening!!

I am having another one of those sloth days.  Need to decide what to do about dinner.  I don't have the energy, like Jo, to cook at 3 AM.  Maybe I could just show up at the house and beg for dinner. Naw, I can't drive that far LOL. I think it will have to be chili dogs or beanie weenies.  Mind you I don't eat crap every day. I think I have been influenced by all the Naked and Afraid comments. Just find something to eat since I have stayed in the pj's all day. (my version of naked)

Glad you are here.  Sounds like you have been preparing for some time.  I don't know much about vaping but for me it would still be smoking, inhaling nicotine. I did not use the patch, I used lozenges.  None of it is easy but can be done.  We all know the struggle.  I think this board is a major player in my quit.  They (I) will be here to help. 

I am okay now, Linda gave me a call and calmed the fword down.  Things just  build up and you think you are going to lose it.  Dear sweet Linda listened to me bitch and whine. I feel so much better.  THANKS FOR BEING THERE LINDA FOR THIS CRAZY OLD LADY!!!!

I just dont know what is wrong with me.  I have come so far but am having such a struggle.  I am struggling so much.  I am tired, depressed and just want to feel better.  Yes, I know it is stupid.  Has anyone felt this way so far into the quit?