darcy

thanks to those who write , so we may read.

Loving to read, read, read.  Can't string a thought together....20 hours free. Yay .

Well said, DenaliBlues.

Yay you and your freedom.

true Jillar.  At over 10 months FREE (and it has been and continues to BE deeply gratifying in many ways) my addiction tries to tell me to pick up.  Is it abstinence or FREEDOM?  Pondering...

thanks Mona.  that is funny ....

Will need to ponder the possibilities.

Glad to read your entry.

...your energy and manner of showing up sing to my heart,

thanks for sharing.

planning...more like outlining a plan.

  caffeine is really 2-4 cups, 8oz cups, of coffee in the morning (heavily laden with cream and sugar), so more than I'd like , but many miles from the 6 Monsters a day I drank 10 years ago.  You could say I have weaned over a decade...lol.

  and the sugar... I have been trying t be aware of how much I consume, just so I actually know....seems I randomly binge and have dessert everyday.  The dessert thing started 10 years ago....used to be occasional desert, now daily.  

Currently, I am trying to be excited about my success in ceasing nicotine.  My screwed up internal dialogue snidely comments, "so what , you still are weighing in at extremely unhealthy numbers, so why bother with one , if you're not going to fix (choose healthy) for all."  My actual self realizes that progress is progress and loving myself as I am IS the HEALTHIEST choice and path I can possibly take.

Your continued support and connection is deeply appreciated.