Sunshine59

India

I thought depression was a normal thing , because i have it everyday due to financial reasons and cultural reasons .Its almost like depression is a normal thing in this country .

Every where you look you can see depressed people  , lol

But i know i am more privileged than most of my neighbors financially .

Then i have positive times too , Maybe life is like that . I don't know one person that is happy all the time .

Please think positive , The beginning stages of the quit are the hardest , It only becomes more easy and easy .

You also become more healthier and healthier as time passes by .

I have cravings too sometimes , that is because i am very bored sometimes .

I am even waiting for a new job , currently i am unemployed even after a 90% complete Bsc computer science degree and a Bba degree which i am about to finish in a month through a distance education university .

Please think about all the positive achievements

Life is still mostly dull for me .

Used to happen to me too when i was a bit excited , i always thought a smoke would complete me when i was excited .

But , keep fighting

That time was the hardest for me too in the beginning , my toughest time was from 6 in the evening to almost 10:30 at night  .

Somehow managed to overcome the dullness during that time .

I am very fresh again after 10:30

I am a person who is very energetic at night and late nights .

I don't know why its that way

Sorry , i forget to put a quote

@Solo

It will all come back once you stay away from smoking

Life is a lot more things you have to do everyday . All these problems exist because you made cigarette a habit .

Life is a bit miserable for most of us most of the times .Boring , Depressing etc .But when you avoid smoking you can fight all these slowly slowly without ruining your health .

Depression is mostly imaginary

Thanks for the reply Lilly ,

That craving i suddenly had after 3 months and 26 days is gone now .

Thank god for that .

Now , just waiting for the monsoon and the rain to arrive . It is like my new mental block .

Its my favorite season too.

@notsmokinjo

A bit of a disaster after 24 days of not smoking .

Was drinking , i had lots of stress and lighted up one .

So there goes my 24 days quit .

I am restarting again

@StewieTech

Thanks for the reply ,

I am not using the forum much these days .

Keeping the internet activity to a minimum

I have loads of assignments to finish for the 5th semester distance education  course ,  bit stressed out .

So staying away from the PC too

Have fun everyone

@StewieTech ,

I just liked this two lines of the song to be honest , lol

Good day to be alive, Sir
Good day to be alive, he said

Nowadays eating less than 5 gums daily .

I do not need gums in the morning

I do not need it at noon time

But in the evenings after 6 .

I cannot stay away from the smoking cravings without it

@StewieTech ,

Thanks for the reply ...

Here is the answer , lol

Metallica - No Leaf Clover , i reversed the text in a little application , lol

[Verse 1]
And it feels right this time
On this crash course with the big time
Pay no mind to the distant thunder
New day fills his head with wonder, boy

Says it feels right this time
Turned it around and found the right line
Good day to be alive, Sir
Good day to be alive, he said

[Chorus]
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just the freight train coming your way

[Verse 2]
Doesn't it feel right like this
All the pieces fall to his wish
Sucker for that quick reward boy
Sucker for that quick reward they said

[Chorus]
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just the freight train coming your way
It's coming your way
It's coming your way

[Guitar Solo]

[Chorus]
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just the freight train coming your way

It must be the gums , i think i am a nicotine gum addict now ,

9 days and 13 hours without smoking .

I feel really good right now !!!!!!!!!

@WeegieWoman

Dear god i am thankful for a lot of things

I have no idea why i felt like posting it like this , lol

One more stupid entry for my blog , lol

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@johnny5

Thanks

Wow i am exhausted to the max in the evening , i cannot stay focused in the evening , with my 2 year old kid around it is a bit hard to stay focused , lol

@bakon

I am trying to conquer the emptiness in the evening these days .From 6 to 9:30 or 10 , i am so out of focused , tired , dull and exhausted .

So i am trying to figure out ways to stay fresh somehow during the evenings

@jillar  ,

Found an awesome article online

I think everyone trying to quit should read this .

Focusing on the Important Stuff in an Age of Distraction

In a world saturated with social media and unlimited interruptions, many of us struggle to focus on what’s in front of us. With so many voices vying for attention, it’s hard to know what’s worth our time

https://goinswriter.com/distraction/

I think being out of focus is a major part of everyday life .

You know , times when you are not able to focus on anything specific .

I always have this feeling that when you smoke it puts you back on focus quickly .

Maybe i should try some meditation techniques , in that way if i do not have anything specific to focus on , at least i can focus on my breathing part .

One more important point added , do not try to overcome the everyday out of focus issues with smoking .

9th successful day without smoking .

Sometimes the inability to focus is making me thinking about smoking again .

But i am not going to smoke .

"You need to work to strengthen your 'focus muscle' and figure out what is distracting you "

The evening hyper mental times aside i am feeling great

One week over and the pull of the brain for a cigarette is still strong

I really thought all the cravings would go away after a week .

It could be again one of these issues ,

H.A.L.T. (Hungry,Angry,Lonely,Tired)

I am feeling lonely tired and therefore angry too .

I am also trying to avoid  too much computer usage at night times

Thanks for all the support

@babs609

I am going to take away nicotine gums away from life too , soon

I still have no idea how one can quit without using gums , because sometimes the pull of the brain for a smoke is too hard .

For me , that strong pull only goes  away once i start chewing a gum .

Otherwise i should be doing some other interesting activities , lol

@StewieTech

I am doing alright , but i have to eat at least 9 or 10 nicotine gums to fight the nicotine cravings

I will stay away from that too within a week

@jillar

Thanks i will try that , i will try everything , because the sort of freshness i get when i do not smoke is amazing .

Earlier i had some trouble being energetic when i woke up in the morning but that is because i used to go to bed very late

It was not the cigarette , it was my sleeping habit .

When i get proper sleep i don't feel like an energy drained person in the morning , first i thought it was the cigarette .Its not , its just an issue related to my sleeping habits

@notsmokinjo

If i give up the gums right now i have this really uneasy feeling ... i guess i will slowly give up the nicotine gums too .

My god ,  even though i joined this forum to quit smoking , i learned a lot more about managing my own life  , lol

@StewieTech

I have tried the cold turkey way many times before , but i think why it did not work is because i had an empty feeling when i was doing nothing at all .

This chewing nicotine gums is like a little activity on its own

So i am going to stick with the gums for 1 or 2 more weeks

That way i don't get too bored

This is very weird , i do not want to smoke anymore .

I hate smoking

It rises my heart rate

It heats up my body and face

I know all this .

But I think my brain is struggling a bit and is asking for a smoke .

It is like suddenly me and brain are two persons .

Let me see if i can control my brain this time .

Sorry brain , i do not have cigarette's with me .

You can have a nicotine gum instead .

I do not even like nicotine gum , but my brain is very restless .

Now i get it . Its not me that wants the cigarette ,

It is my brain this time .

I think it is feeling empty without the nicotine and is going through some sort of reaction , lol

I personally seriously do not want the cigarette

@WeegieWoman

I am 33 years old ... started smoking at 30 only , smoked 3 or 4 cigarettes daily , started smoking around my wife's pregnancy ... i smoke outside only ...lol

but since the last one year i am a chain smoker , i finish a pack a day 

Which makes me a sad person too ...

i just figured out a few more things . when i am left alone behind my pc i am  a very happy person .I feel peaceful and don't even think about smoking

Then i stare into my Facebook and few websites i regularly visit .I feel very calm , cool , and happy

I guess its when i have to deal with some people that i don't like is when i feel like smoking as a way to escape things i do not like .

At least narrowed down a few more important things

Nowadays whenever my brain shows craving i eat a nicotine gum and thus i am able to control it for few hours .

I have a very good feeling that i am going to give away this smoking habit maybe right now , because i have sore throat and  i was drinking warm water right now .

I can do this .

Why do i think i cannot do this ?

Right now i do not have cigarettes with me and i am not planning to buy it either

Maybe its time  to put a proper forum ticker .

This time i swear in the name of my god , i am not going to buy another pack .

I personally do not even like cigarettes anymore , but its like my brain is a completely  different person asking for more cigarettes

Maybe its time  to put a proper forum ticker

@jillar , @reciprocity

Thanks for the replies

Thanks WeegieWoman ,

I have been googling all sorts of things from breathing techniques , yoga , meditation , Buddhism etc since past few months 

All of those does not always looks practical in real life .

Everything is missing something .

We do all those things to relax .

So the key word here is relaxation itself .

If none of the above works one should at least tell oneself to relax somehow most of the time under stress . Those simple words itself helps a lot

Breath in , Breath out

Relax , Relax , Relax ...

I have been googling relaxation techniques since the past 40 minutes

I am trying to find a book about the various relaxation techniques .

Let me see if i can find a good book about it

Hello babs609 ,

I have been trying to narrow a lot of things down related to my very serious addiction .

It happens everyday , the narrowing down process .

I was able to cut down a lot of triggers that led me to smoking , improved a lot of things about my diet etc .

A minute ago i was reading about the importance of relaxation techniques , i think that is what i have been missing .

Automatically my mind is a bit of a mess due to number of things i have to continuously follow , like my studies

From today on wards i am going to focus a lot more on the word relaxation techniques

I always thought relaxation techniques was simply some breathing techniques to calm one down .

That is not always the case .

In times like these when addiction makes one restless and mental , all sorts of relaxation techniques are so important .

Life is sometimes mental , sometimes dull , sometimes too much stress .

There is only one way to deal with it .

That is  to practice all the relaxation techniques one knows

I am going to continuously try to learn about it , starting from Friday 16/11/2018 

The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing

Someday i have to conquer this addiction

Addiction is something that makes you mental if you don't get it ...

Most of the days i usually try to quit before the clock hits 12 o clock midnight .

That is my most favorite time

Repeating a particular activity, even if only with the imagination, wires it more securely into the brain. Thus each attempt at self-discipline is worthwhile. There’s no such thing as failure unless one actually gives up and stops trying. Every attempt at self-discipline is a step towards accomplishing it. Even just thinking about it is a step in the right direction.