MichelleDoesntSmokeAnymore

One day at a time...sometimes one hour or one minute at a time....NOPE!!

NOPE!!

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As a smoker for 38 years I appreciate this thread because I struggle and struggle and relapse and relapse, then find myself wondering why others are able to stay quit and why I give in to the junkie thinking and make the choice to smoke again ("just one last pack because ABC") over and over and over again, fully aware of what I'm doing but "feeling" powerless to stop (note I am aware I'm "feeling" powerless, not truly powerless in reality) Please don't read into this post as giving myself an excuse to relapse. Thats not what I mean. I mean, I am trying not to kick myself in the head everytime I relapse, but to stay aware of the fact that when you smoke for as long as some of us have smoked, its going to be hard, its going to be tough and instead of hating on ourselves and criticizing ourselves (that will lead to giving up trying) its better to acknowledge that its going to continue to be hard and that its time to try something different...take suggestions...try new things to avoid giving in. I need to shake up this quit. I'm tired of coming in here with a new quit over and over again. Its embarrassing and humbling for sure.

And a good one! Thanks Ankush!

Good morning Family....

NOOOOOOOOOOOPE!!!

I've eaten my body weight in pretzel sticks today. Whatever it takes, right?

Thanks all. I'm trying to go without a patch today. I just want to get the nicotine out of my system. I may have three days but the nicotine is still in my system.....Today has been one long craving for hours at a time and its making me crazy

I do. I Liisten to music every day. I'll try to identify a song that has "Quit Smoking" energy in it. Great suggestion, thanks!

....put something in my mouth and set it on fire....

I still struggle with finding rewards. I'm very sedentary due to a serious knee injury/impending surgery. I've given up sweets, my usual reward, because losing weight is an emergency for me due to my knee problems. Its hard for me to get into and out of the bathtub but I'll try tonight because I love baths and I have some delicious smelling bubble bath. I do have two books going and I could do some stepwork (12 step program) but that doesn't really feel like a reward lol. I asked for suggestions for a sedentary non smoker but I can't find the thread so if you don't mind, throw out anything you can think of. What did you reward yourself with?

Good morning friends!!! NOPE!!!!

Ahhh thanks for pointing that out. 7/20 at 8:45pm is the right date and time. Ticker is right. I'll update my profile

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Nice

Person A: "I won $20 on a scratcher today!"

Person B: "Nice!!!"

Not very exciting but I use it

I keep getting the feeling that "Something's missing" or that I want something. Not necessarily a smoke or a vape but.....something. But theres nothing to get or have. I could go back on the sweets but I really don't want to and besides there aren't any sweets in the house. My sister and brother in law don't have sweets in the house. Yargh. I've got my ice water, gum, toothpaste and mouthwash. 

Motivation:

My dear Michelle

You have abused and neglected your body for your entire life thus far. Its time to take care of yourself. Every time you resist reaching for that smoke, vape or unhealthy food, you are doing right by yourself and you should be grateful and proud. Smoking and/or vaping and/or eating junk food will only make you feel worse and set back your healthy lifestyle committment more. Remember how you get such a carb crash after eating sweets, how it makes you feel bad about yourself etc. Remember how you want to research things that will help your skin look more youthful, like Loris. Even if you can't erase the smoker's lines, you can halt them. Think about that friend of yours who's face looks like a roadmap. That is your future if you return to smoking. Don't be a fat old lady in a wheelchair on oxygen, still smoking and overeating. NOW IS THE TIME while you still have a chance. So if you don't think of your health, think of your appearence and the quality of life you are setting yourself up for. 

I love you,

Michelle

Good idea @Sazerac  IDK what to reward myself with though.  My favorite reward is something sweet but I'm on a no sugar diet because losing weight is an emergency for me due to my knee injury and impending surgery. What suggestions do you guys have for a reward? I can't just go take a walk, and I don't want to get in the shower multiple times a day. Any suggestions appreciated

@Sazerac I like that saying. Comes down to "I have a choice".  Its just uncomfortable.

Thanks. I'm going to study my programming. Good distraction, and very productive. I'm laid up with a knee injury but am trying to stay productive. Thank you for the reply.

I'm not *about* to smoke. I don't have any and no means or transportation to get any (I am staying with my sister after moving to Cali from Seattle, had to leave my car in WA and there are no busses that come here). But it was suggested I post here when I have a craving and I'm having a monster one. First one since yesterday evening. Just putting it out there. NOPE for me. NOPE NOPE NOPE

On 7/20/2019 at 3:24 AM, Boo said:

Confession: I am guilty of stereotyping/profiling Jo.  I just assume she knows all about boomerangs and kangaroos because she lives in Australia.

 

Saw this commercial last night while watching a baseball game and immediately thought of Jo...

THAT HURT A LITTLE

1 hour ago, Linda Thomas said:

My brother lives in California and I find the people to be way laid back.  

They are way more laid back in Seattle. Peace, love, godspeed brother, lets walk our dogs and recycle. Not in all areas of course but Fremont, Greenlake and Ballard for sure. As for California it depends on the area. For God's sake stay away from LA if you want laid back.

That being said, the only other place I've lived besides CA is the Seattle area (see above) so I have no idea what its like to live in any other states. Oh Oh Oh Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada...the epitome of laid back. I spent a week there and was shocked at how kind and laid back everyone was (at least those I interacted with)

29 minutes ago, despair not said:

Michelle chicks take away sticks add

 

Michelle -4

 

Me -3

Awww now look, I've gone and messed it up

Yes you WILL and you MUST and so will I. The mental triggers are hard. For me they are things like getting out of the car, getting into the car,  12 step meetings, first thing in the morning, before bed and breathing. Oh ya, and Tuesdays. The sun coming up. You name it. We will both get there. The farther away we get from our last smoke the easier it will get. This is how I had to think about my other addictions.

I live in Sacramento aka "Hellfire Inferno" Its dry heat but I question if it matters when its 105.

Oh yeah, I was in Alabama during the hot season. It does.

Playing on the board and NOT SMOKING. Also waiting to go to the pharmacy. Then practice some coding. Any web developers in da house?

On 2/28/2018 at 6:43 AM, notsmokinjo said:

Well pur should a been our but the rest was proper bogan.

 

Bwahhaha