MichelleDoesntSmokeAnymore

I don't reach out with an SOS, no....I need to catch myself between entertaining the thought and actually making the decision to smoke. Because once I make the decision to smoke I don't WANT to be helped or talked out of it. If I can stop myself as soon as I entertain the thought and post an SOS before the decision is actually made, I will have a fighting chance. Reciprocity, yes you're right, this is no way to live. To know that logically but still be stuck is hell on earth.

I have not smoked since yesterday afternoon. So there's that. 

Thank you for sharing Christian! I'm embarrassed to admit that about ten years ago I started jogging. After my jog I'd light a cig. Madness. Insanity. And I knew it but I was at that time unable to stop. This time around I have drastically changed my diet so its  very cool you suggested doing the same thing. I can only exercise a little, as my mobility is severely limited due to the need for major surgery but I hope to get in with a physical therapist soon and ask them to tell me what exercises I *can* safely do. Sounds like I'm on the right track since it worked for you! 17.5 years quit...that is AMAZING. I'll follow in your footsteps!!!

I hear you there, Linda. I'm so stubborn that when the crave gets bad enough I make that conscious decision to smoke so i don't post on the SOS because I've already made that decision. The trick for me is going to be to post in the SOS board the second I start to crave, before I've made that decision.

1. I really don't like wearing a patch but I honestly don't believe I stand a chance trying to go cold turkey this time around. The last two times I went cold turkey it was fairly easy. This time is much harder

huh. Why did it put a "1." before the last sentence? LOL

Excellent suggestion. Thank you. And I'm the special one too...lets go build our own special people island where smokings not allowed lol

I agree with you Sazerac about not putting any nicotine in my body but I haven't managed to quit despite multiple tries so I thought it better to wean off nicotine than keep smoking. I have moments of doubt if I'm doing the right thing. Will consider more tomorrow. The for the reply!

Thank you all. I'm still having monster cravings even with my patch on so I'm seriously considering taking it off. At least its just nicotine, not all the nasty chemicals that are in cigarettes but I keep thinking that as long as I'm wearing it, it means nothing to read the inspirational "how your body heals timeline". IDK. I feel like I need to be in a better place mentally before I make that decision so I'll think about it tomorrow.