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It took me by surprise, the intensity, the feeling it is my right to smoke !

Damn not sure where that type of feelings came from but they did engage me strongly, thank god I had this forum to weed out this type of thinking in my head.   I surely would have broke and tossed my quit, if it you all didn't  provide me the knowledge and support you did.

You know that is one thing particular I really like about quit train, is all the long, medium and short timers, all the different takes on quitting, I mean we have world wide opinions and tactics.

Thank you  

Thank you Guys, but this is not over, it is manageable right now but it is still there more of a nonchalant crave than a I have to smoke, you know that no big deal if I do crave !

Still chewing the hard candies, I need the rush right now.  Got to get 2nd shift in gear and running.  Ill be back

You keep your awesomeness Jill,   It is a privilege to have you in my corner 

OK finally can suck on a hard candy without chewing it right away.

Deep breathes, Hard candy Jill and Linda are my saviors tonight.

So I have pretty much blown off all that started this, came to grips with it, who do I want to Be a non smoker or not a non smoker.

I am really looking forward to my year, it has only taken me 2 / 3 years to get here.  

This kept building and building,  got so stressed out I spent all day in my room, Black out drapes pulled closed and tight, laid there no TV no radio

Thought I was OK until  I walk out to the Lunch truck an smelled the smoke. I bought $15 worth of crap to stick into my face, and then started here.   Fat chance on sucking the hard candies 15 seconds and crunch.

God Bless Hard Candy, Linda and Jill

Thank you Linda, Your response stopped me from going out with one of my guys.  and you helped me tell him if he gave me a smoke I would fire him.  so that takes that source away.

 Freaking trembling in side

Man I now you all are going to say this is BS but all that talk about OOO I doing so good only 18 cigarettes smoked and hello felloe non smokers I right on track only smoked 16 today and i feel so good.  well it really jacked me up then the Forum you go girl your doing great ?

I really want a freaking smoke freak why not hell I can quit after 10 / 15 packs and start all over again.   Ya I know I get chastised for this but it is my first SOS I have never been this screwed.

You know I still want a smoke.   Maybe only a pack five or so a day  

Stressed Out Sunday left work early, Started to really think about smoking 18 today and 17 or 16 tomorrow, I think its wrong, but this is the last of that.

Back today after some well earned sleep still was broken sleep but it was more than I have been getting.

My wife is home for the next couple of days which also helps me sleep, it is nice to roll over reach out and have that warmth next to you, or the soft kiss to wake you in the morning.  She will be gone again Thursday, But  at least I have today.

Time for me to get back to eating right and Testing my sugar every morning.  Been on Holiday since I got my eyes fixed, and if I want to keep them this way I must keep my sugar in a good range.

I am so not the Vegetarian or vegan, I love ? well at least I did haven't  had red meat since I went out for breakfast and had stake and eggs and thinking bout it I brought most the stake home?

Starting to live on ceviche and getting a little creative with it adding scallops with the shrimp and crab.

I know it shouldn't bother me this way,  Just going to turn my head.

Damn I didn't realize how  invested I was getting, but hey Lesson learned.  Going to step way back.

Still at a loss

well just totally bummed out, watched all my feel good things but cant get it to feel right. be back later  

So is it only good for you raw in the leafs, do the cook all the good out in a can?

1st day back after a None event holiday and I feel doomed !

Guess that's what I get for watching Deep Impact just before coming in to work, this one you saw the Girl and her dad taken by the wave, all the others kinda moved on to the kids getting up the mountain and not showing that.

Well hope you all had a great BBQ family and friends.

Focus Factor has Lutein and zeaxanthin, well maybe I should have?

Focus Select® utilizes the latest improvements discovered in AREDS2®, replacing beta-carotene with lutein and zeaxanthin and limiting zinc to the lowest dosage proven effective in the study. 

Ok real question, I have a associate with a family issue,  He came to me for advice ?   but the advice I gave him sounded to also be good advice for me.  I was using a product called Focus Factor, Vitamins and minerals for the mind,  I was very impressed with the results when I was using them.

So I Google them and their they are Original, extra strength, and now with healthy vision additives.  HUMMM, I figure the extra is mostly extra money and it was the original that I liked and used.

 But what about this Healthy vision ? man after everything I have just went thru How could I not take heed.

I do plan on purchasing a major amount of the focus Factor original, but for the difference of 10 cents a pill I could get the healthy eyes with it ?

They say:

Lutein and zeaxanthin are natural carotenoids that have been shown through structural and clinical studies to be concentrated in the macular segment of the retina. These carotenoids are not produced by the human body, and their accumulation in the eye is dependent on dietary intake.

Ok so what they are there, that could be a bad thing not a good thing, that is why the body does not product them?    OR

Yes I know carotene's are good for the eyes and we get them from carrots and other raw Root vegetables.  so is it worth screwing with a good formula to get something I would normally eat that has it ?   so Far I am doing a good job of talking my self out of it, Man I just really want to take care of me new found sight.  Really could use all of yours advice here.

rinse with salt water, it really helps the Gums heal

Sunday Sunday can't trust that day.  Sunday Morning you gave me no warning of what was to be.   Ooooh Sunday Morning, Sunday Moring wouldn't guarantee, that on Sunday evening you you would still be here with me.  Every other day, every other day of the week is fine now 

But when ever Sunday comes, But when ever Sunday comes it leaves me crying all of the time.  OK enough whining what would Linda DO/SAY?

Fighting the runs, complicating them by eating some not so good menudo and nasty ass coffee.  regretting being here at work,   OOOOO shit got to Go ~!

Hey you look at what you have done already !

Generally, nicotine will leaves your blood within 1 to 3 days after you stop using tobacco, and cotinine will be gone after 1 to 10 days. Neither nicotine nor cotinine will be detectable in your urine after 3 to 4 days of stopping tobacco products.

You can say I AM NICOTINE AND COTININE FREE !

Eyes are ruff this morning, i really need to take that couple of days after to let them heal, feels like I had salt poured in my eyes this morning which is usual after the shots.

Need to get back to my normal schedule before the next go round, this is very uncomfortable.

all is going very well with my eyes, shots have been extended to 6 weeks instead of a month.  my vision is so good they believe I do not need any prescription glasses.  I was told I can stop the prescription eye drops and just use the lubricating dry relief over the counter ones when needed. 

It use to take a couple days after the shots for my eye to feel and see better but here I am 7 hours later and reading and writing, my eyes feel a little fatigued but not much more than that.

Damn I am a happy camper. 

OK so here I am,  last of my shots in the eyes for 6 weeks are done.  I was able to see well enough to drive myself to work after a couple hour nap. 

The wife wasn't to happy about me coming into work, the eye guys would have preferred me staying at home for a least a day after the shots. 

But if I can make the working conditions a bit more pleasant

and less tense it is in my benefit to assist.

I am feeling fine not exuberant but way better than yesterday

(Thank you  Kat) your future visions are right on !  Today is a better day than yesterday.