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  1. WTF is with the identity change, I liked the scarred kitty, I was comfortable with the scarred kitty, the scarred kitty made me think ooh I better not smoke or the scarred kitty might get me ... BUT NO... Now its a grey circle with NOPE...nope is good but grey circle??? And it's not even a circle...its unevenly incomplete and my OCD is not liking if it very much...every time I see a post of yours I freak at the gaps in the circle not matching... Now you know why I don't do Jarlsberg...aargh do you really want me more insane than normal !!!!! I've tried all day to adjust to it but I just cana do it captain.

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    2. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      WooHoo....thank you?...and an awesome song to have stuck in my head all day...love it.

       

    3. Whispers

      Whispers

      First song i thought of and im not sure why i changed it, NOPE pic was like a post it reminder of my choice i guess but i do agree the snow tiger i do like

    4. jillar

      jillar

      I LOVE my Eminem, he's on my list lol. Welcome back whispers

  2. What a lovely reno job, couldn't have done betta meself. @Wee fluffy me and @jillar look who finally pulled his finger out and tidy up his bachelor pad.

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    2. jillar

      jillar

      The guy kicking?

    3. Sslip

      Sslip

      I'm the one jumping over by the sticks in the ground

    4. jillar

      jillar

      That's the guy I guessed! I thought you were kicking something though. Nice form btw :15_yum:

  3. I miss you piggy... so does pork chop... we want you to come back.... ? ? ? ..... the house isn't going anywhere, the paint wont go off, come and play ......please.... pretty please with sugar on top.....

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    2. Reciprocity

      Reciprocity

      Stewie :18_kissing_heart: You're a pretty smart guy!

      You asked two questions and the second one pretty much answered your first one.

      Needed a break for a bit and had LOTS of house painting to do as well - good progress (on both fronts) now though :) 

      Besides, who could resist free beer :15_yum:

    3. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      Pork Chop is a genius.... he frickin loves me and you.... so not only is he smart he has bloody good taste as well ?

    4. Doreensfree

      Doreensfree

      Now !!!!....The family is complete...!!!!

  4. @Wee fluffy me you guilted me into do some renos.

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    2. jillar

      jillar

      Love the remodel jo! :)

    3. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      She's pretty spesh, my corner of Melbourne...

    4. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      this is about 37km from the heart of the Melbourne CBD... we really are the lucky country.

  5. So this post is purely to explain where I vanished to...so where did I go?..... too far into my own head...Did I smoke, NOPE!!

    So I have a daily battle with anxiety just to walk out my front door, once I'm out I'm usually fine it's just getting out and interacting with that first person....then I'm usually OK until I get home and then the walls close in and the anxiety and doubt starts and I rehash every single interaction from the day from every angle.. so lockdown not so good for me..since late 2019 I have really struggled with my mental health including some suicidal episodes, my health/medications were the trigger but there were underlying things within my character and history and anxieties that fed my freefall. 2020-21 has been really bad for me...I left my job, which I hated, for what I hoped was greener pastures but instead was bad, bad, bad...all my psychological triggers hot switched and I basically worked if I was awake....I was doing more unpaid hours a week than paud hours and being criticised constantly because I wasn't working enough...which just fed that little voice in my head telling me how pathetic I am etc...I couldn't come here because I didn't have time (in my mind) and I couldn't be anything other than negative about anything...every day I saw or heard things that reminded me of here and the guilt I felt by vanishing weighed heavier and heavier and the need to come buck burnt more each day. So in August my radio station started spruiking Aus Music Month...and the happy voice in my head, thr one that had been squashed and silenced for nearly 2 years went, "Oi dipshit, Aus Music Month, one song a day, get your arse back on the train"..and I started working on a play list...a few days later I quit the job from he'll on a whim...then one of the dearest friends I've ever had, but never met, went on a campaign of sms to put a cracker up my arse to get me back, then I landed a new job, strict hours easier work, more money, win, win, win... and here I am back. Where I feel I belong, where I've just been accepted back, no questions, no awkwardness, as if I didn't vanish and ghost you all. Am I better?, will I ever be, probably not, and I making changes to improve things yep....Fark I missed you mob, every frickin day..

    So that's why I vanished, my brains broken and I thought you deserved better than my presence (see brains broke)... I know, and I've always known you mob don't care and accept all my crazy, just need to do it myself.

    Finally, to all my friends here, which us pretty much the lot of you, I am sorry. Sorry I vanished. Sorry despite knowing in my heart you wouldn't care that I couldn't be miss positivity and sunshine you mob wouldn't care I ran and hid. It was a shitty thing to do and the fact you have welcomed me back as I never left just proves what wonderful amazing people you all are.

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    2. Cbdave

      Cbdave

      Gday Jo

      Just found this and well just simply…. Glad your back. You didn’t really have to explain yourself but I wouldn’t be surprised if that was good for you as well. Welcome from old fart

      regards Chris

    3. Jordan7

      Jordan7

      We all have broken parts and pieces and sometimes need friends to help us glue ourselves back together.  You're a star, jo, with an amazing, often amusing, view of the world as well as exceptional artistic talents, and I strongly suspect you're an excellent cook also. You've so much going for you that it's a great shame and such a waste if you allow anyone to make you feel otherwise.  I'm so sorry for your sadness and glad to hear that you're finding ways to move towards a happier you.  Making peace with our demons is a slow slog some days, with steps forward then back -- a lot like quitting smoking, and we know you aced that one.

    4. Rozuki

      Rozuki

      Welcome back, NSJo! I missed your sassy ass-comments and take on things around here!! Glad you were able to quit that job you hated!! PS I need to brush up on my Aussie-speak, it's been awhile....🤠

  6. Ooh aah... like the blue car!

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    2. Sslip

      Sslip

      They engineer all the lambos as well. Better to have Italian styling and German engineering than the other way round :)

    3. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      Can I just your brother wins the sun smart prize... no sunburn scars to backs of his retinas!

    4. Sslip

      Sslip

      That's not my bruv - each car has an instructor, so yes the instructor (the wise one) has no sunburn scars on the back of his retsinas ;)

       

      Or any other kind of wine for that matter!

  7. Hope all is well with you and the kidlets and family... missed your glittery greatness at my Lido Party..... Come back and play with us... and let us know all is well.

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    2. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      Woohoo... not that you lost your phone or that you have been lonely... but that you are still around and the fambams are all well and good.....

    3. Sslip

      Sslip

      Hope all is well Jane. Come and say Hi!

       

      If I don't catch you before wishing you and your family a very happy and healthy 2019!

    4. MLMR

      MLMR

      Jane, are you all right? I am worried about you, Glitters. X

  8. Noone told me I'd need paddin in me pants to hang here.

    1. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      ^see the sticks v's chicks number game... I don't like loosin

    2. jillar

      jillar

      Aww, now it makes sense lol :)

    3. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      I think the padding needs to be re-enforced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  9. Merry Christmas everyone.... don't stress the Looney Bird will be back... gotta have my Boobie out.... just being a sparkly christmas ornament for the day... and remember.... everyone should be pineapples... Stand Tall, Be Sweet and Wear a Crown!

    1. Rozuki

      Rozuki

      Merry Christmas, Jo! ?

    2. Sazerac

      Sazerac

      Love you, bebe.

    3. jillar

      jillar

      Merry Christmas Jo :) 

  10. 5 o'clockski hit tonight and I was off like a plate a prawns in the sun.

    1. Reciprocity

      Reciprocity

      Hope you feel better??

    2. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      LOL .... here's a translation:  5 o'clock hit tonight and I left work as quick as a plate of prawns (shrimp) goes off if left in the sun.

       

  11. Miss you beazel... hope your doing well and loving on those grand babies and rocking it out for the oldies. Hope you know what a huge part of my early quit you were and how greatful I am that I had you in those dark early days to help light my way. ?

    1. beazel

      beazel

      Thank you Jo, you are so adorably sweet. Look at you now, one of the strongest, most supportive ex-smokers to help guide the way for whomever needs you. You a quite a gal & will always be in my heart.

    2. notsmokinjo

      notsmokinjo

      I had some pretty good teachers, including you, so excited you popped in. Thank you so much for being there to hold my hand and guide me in the early days, I will always be grateful.

  12. Right, I made my house all pretty like, even got the Fluffy seal of approval. You Mr N'Slide clearly need to do something to your place... or are ya waiting for the FA Cup win?

    1. Sslip

      Sslip

      What's wrong, does the minimalist look not work?

  13. I feel like some chocolate coated legumes.

  14. Woohoo Lilly... well done on being 1 week smoke free... doing it one day at a time like the quitter we know you can be. Fantastic job Lilly... this is the one, the holy grail we all seek... this is the sticky one!

  15. OMG you came back... How you been... How was Chrissy.... haven't seen you since last year..... what's the story chook?

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